I can't fucking take it /adv/...the tension is too much

Take a step back and look at yourself. Are you and interesting person that people want to hang out with?
If you're not, just accept that you're weird and do the best damn job for that paycheck. You're not there to make friends.

>>18399464

But I need to mesh with the others to be considered a good worker. We seem to have friendly enough conversations but I still can't fight the fear that they secretly dislike/hate me or something.

I was doing find until today but all of a sudden it became this huge problem that I can't stop thinking about.

>>18399486
You're rushing this thing a little bit too much, at least wait for 3 months before assuming everyone hates you. Did something bad happened on your previous job?

>>18399515

Was a bit of a black sheep, often kept out of the loop or not invited to things. Everyone there was crazy judgemental and could be quite mean, talking to some of them could be like walking on eggshells because saying something weird gave them stuff to talk about with others later on.

It still just...I've encountered this experience so many times before (work, school, etc) and I'm at my wits with it. I'm a super traumatized loser, I'll never be the well adjusted type. I do my absolute best to be nice to people but that's almost never enough.

>>18399552
You just need to learn a bit more on communication skills, thats all.

A little protip; the less you know about a person, the more you wanted to know about that person. It what makes a person interesting. Be that person.
And please don't be a nice to people, but be polite. Nice guy finish last is very true in a corporate working environment.

I have a sister who you seem to think like. " Why am I so weird? Why am I always akward?" In my mind, its a problem with being self-centered.

I feel self-centered usually carries a bratty connotation, but why I mean by this is that you are so focused on yourself in these situations that you end up tearing yourself apart.

When you think to yourself "I am weird", you shouldn't feel isolated by that, everyone is weird as fuck. You are so focused on yourself in these situations that you obsess over your supposed missteps or flaws.

In the situation where you want to mingle and better get to know someone, instead of being so self-centered focus your attention to the other person, be an active listener so you don't get lost in your thoughts and psychoanalyze yourself. Everyone is weird and awkward, you are just self-centered.

Not everyone will like you, but the benefit of a co-worker is you can still have a cordial relationship even though you don't really mesh as friends. As long as your are polite and know your boundaries people will like you.