I am so done in general >Cousin just died recently >absolute

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I am so done in general

>Cousin just died recently
>absolute mental wreck lately
>never go out shut off and just coast thru life
>date setup
>im doing well
>its gonna be a blast just some fun bar hopping at a local scene
>like this girl quite a bit
>end up at bar "im on my way"
>4 hours later
>hey im here at bar are you still there?
>I was actually watching the baseball game just chilling till she showed up to barhop
>"yeah im still here"
>"omg im so sorry I can't make it out tonight emergency came up i gtg I was already outside"
>ive just been stood up on a casual outing
>"No worries i am actually gonna head somewhere else"
>bartender actually knows me
>ask for a final beer before I leave
>not even 5 minutes later
>she walks in with one of her girl friends a male co-worker and sees me
>just smile at her but im broken i look like a fucking idiot
>say bye to the bartender and barbacks since I used to frequent this place a lot
>bartender notices im looking like i saw a ghost
>chuckle "Looks like my date that stood me up just showed up"
>she walks over with deer in the headlights look
>bartender starts talking random shit "Hey bro don't worry about it the owner and some friends are waiting in the loft"
>don't even acknowledge her
>pull out wallet "Don't worry man you know mike would be mad if I made you pay"
>gracefully accept his cover
>"Thanks anon tell mike I am meeting some friends at xyz"
>fiercest bro handshake ensues
>random bar qtpie walks by and gives me hug bye


I have been an emotional train wreck since my cousin killed herself recently and stopped going out and just shut myself off. The first outing i try to be social and just live a little I get stood up and she shows up to the same bar we were supposed to go to with a co-worker of mine.

How do you deal with being stood up please help?