I have been in relationship with my boyfriend for 5 years now

>>18324346
You need to get over yourself.

You're getting way too fucking worked up over him watching the porn. I can see trust issues forming, but if you're losing self esteem over the possibility he wanked it to women who mean nothing to him, you need to look in the mirror and do some thinking.

Forgive him but tell him not to lie to you again. Maybe put a porn internet filter on. Most guys do this, its in our DNA to think about sex all the time and sometimes you won't be around. Try to be around him more often. No one is perfect, have you ever looked lustfully at another man? It will help your relationship if you don't watch porn and only see each other but in this society this is a hard trait to achieve.

Basically forgive him and try to forget but tell him to refrain from looking at it again (however hard this may be).

>>18324346
Get that stick out of your ass we need the wood.

Well he's not watching it because he's bored or wants to be "educated". (You don't learn anything about good sex from porn.) It seems like he was just trying to impress you with this stance and at best he has a below average interest in porn.

Work on your issues, though. He should not have lied to you but still. Revisit your opinion of yourself and of women. Only a fraction of women sell their body and if you think men are such sweethearts, look up some gendered stats on any criminal activity really. People are flawed and ultimately all individuals.
Inb4 hurr but I want to feel superior to other women. You ARE a woman, there is no way you can have this strong a negative judgment on your sex and not have it seep into the way you look at yourself as well.

>>18324346
>and he watches it for 'educational' purposes and boredom
Heh, the classic surrounding maneuver.

I think I would be more focused on the fact of the lie than the pornography itself. Don't let porn girls to crash your selfesteem, you're zero related to them so you shouldn't have matters to think about it.

>>18324346
>logged into bf's gmail account without his permission
>he told a blatant and obvious lie to cover his ass, probably doesn't care that he lied to you because from his perspective it's no big deal and it doesn't really matter if it hurt you
>you hate pornstars instead of feeling bad for them
You shouldn't trust your bf, he shouldn't trust you, you shouldn't trust yourself.
You're going to have to acknowledge the fact that it will be a very rare person who actually thinks you are completely special, and an even rarer one who despite seeing you as special, doesn't watch porn and then rationalize it away because it is normal or by compartmentalizing it into something more objective.
Either let him continue or break up with him, because he sure as hell isn't going to stop.

>>18324489
Also your bf sounds like a bullshitter OP, I doubt he even loves you but I am only going off on your description alone. Someone who loved you would at least have enough respect for you and your intelligence to try to lie to you convincingly instead of making up something completely off the wall retarded that he knows you'll buy because you're desperate.

>>18324346
You should reevaluate both your relationship and your stance on porn.

1. Basically all men and most women watch porn. Get over it.
2. No one is ever going to be only attracted to you. That's not a thing. Sexual attraction is biological; there's nothing you can do about that. You need to stop living in a fantasy.
3. Your boyfriend has probably been lying to you about this for the full extent of your relationship. What else has he been lying about? Make your own choices but I couldn't be with someone who maintained any sort of lie for so long.

>>18324346

Sit down and watch porn with him and jerk each other off.

that's what you get for being anti porn: a boyfriend who lies to your dumb ass and jacks it to porn more often that you two kiss

I tried watching porn with my bf and pretty sure we just were watching shit we never would have watched if we weren't together. I wasn't into it at all, the people were all stupid looking and shit. I haven't been into watching it at all since for the most part, save those terrible times your brain just takes over and makes you horny because you are particularly worried about dying on a purely subconscious level that day.

>>18324346
Are women actually this naive? Listen OP, if he's a guy who's not a faggot then he likes watching attractive women naked, fucking, and otherwise engaged in sexual situations - especially if you've been together 5 years. Not that he doesn't love you, but as the saying goes "find me a hot girlfriend (or any girlfriend) and I'll show you the guy who's tired of fucking her". Shit gets stale. Spice up your sex life, take it in the ass, fuck him in the ass, role play, try BDSM, go to a swinger's club, bring a girl/guy home to share, or otherwise get outside your comfort zone in the bedroom. Even if you do though, he will still like porn because it ain't about you.

Fucking get over it.

Boys like to watch porn and jack off. Boo fucking hoo. If you don't like that, become a fucking dyke. Why don't you watch porn with him and have sex together. Use porn as an opportunity to get closer.

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Okey, from a guys perspective.

First of all, he is not worth suicide. Period.

1.
>I have been in relationship with my boyfriend for 5 years now and we are both against pornography
He have definitly been jerking off all those years. I'm sorry. It's just the way it is with us guy.

2. .......

We men are biologically created to fuck as much living as possible. When hot girls are 3 clicks away, well, you get it.

Begin to squat. With a barbell, in the kitchen, on his face, w/e. But squat. Pic related.

>>18324346
>we are both against pornography
lol no, YOU are against pornography. he is just a pussy who's too afraid of losing you but he also can't deny his basic biology

>he doesn't even think about other women
LOL

>I logged into his gmail account
what the fuck.. even if his password was saved on his browser, that's a shitty thing to do. and here i read this person tell you to not trust him. >>18324489 talk about trust...

you shouldn't feel bad. you are literally powerless against male biology. we were and always will be turned on by other women. it's how we're built. we can't stop it, and it isn't your fault in any way that he watches porn. even if you were a 10/10 hot porn slut he'd still look at porn and fap to other women.

don't let this get to you

>>18324954
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>>18325047
what you're all basically saying is that true male nature is to look at other women no matter how much they love only one and THAT fact is what makes me want to kill myself, do you get it now? If I can want only him, then he can want only me. I cannot stand it, the fact that I am not enough, even though I look good, is something that's driving me mad and causing deep psychological problems. Pornography only damages relationships and does no good.

>Recently I logged into his gmail account and viewed

Stop, you already had trust issues, his porn searches didn't create them out of thin air.

>I can't even touch him without all the pictures of these porno sluts coming to my mind.

Better figure out something, either become a Mormon or figure out how to make it work with this guy who at least seems to be trying to minimizing his porn watching habits for you, because if you start telling men that you're 100% against porno in the dating scene you're going nowhere long-term.

>I hate my gender for being such manipulative sluts who sell their body for money

Today I learned there are no male porn stars, and you have self esteem problems.

> trust my bf again
you never did, piss off.

>>18325085
You had deep psychological problems from the beginning, honey.

>>18325085
It's true that these things are hard-wired, if you are REALLY with someone who respects you and has more concern for how that makes you feel than getting their rocks off with some porn or some other girl, you won't feel this way in your relationship. And trust me, girls are fucking disgusting homewreckers that flock to your bf if they know he's taken, it's completely true, women are just as vile if not more so. The issue is that you don't trust *him*. And you're right not to, and you're not obligated to do things that make you uncomfortable to save this relationship. Don't be manipulated into thinking you have to fall all over yourself to "win" this person over that is already supposed to commit to you.

>>18324346
My wife and I are also extremely anti-pornography.
We both think that is extremely degenerate and that you are lusting over someone else, which is a form of cheating. We're also quite right wing Christian conservatives though, so this might not be relevant to you.

Your boyfriend is lying to you, OP. "Educational purposes" is a sack of horse shit. He isn't willing to give up porn and dedicate himself to you, unless you're literally together 24/7.

It sounds like you really love him, considering how much this is having an effect on your mental health. You've also been together for a long time, so it's understandable that it hurts to be betrayed like this. I suggest you don't break up, but instead let him know how much he has betrayed you. Make him promise not to do it again. And if he breaks that promise, it might be time to re-evaluate your relationship. If he can't even keep that one simple promise then what about all the others?

Good luck and God bless you.

>>18324346
Thats absolute bullshit.

Men have insanely insatiable sex drives. We may not all cheat but it never switches off and any woman above a 5 (individual experience may vary) is interesting. I dont care how good your relationship is. If you dont youre gay or asexual.

On the one hand, your boyfriends a priss for lying about this shit, and should have been honest in the first place.

On the other hand, you gotta accept that we look at porn and it doesnt make our gfs any less important to us. Its a thing we do. If anything it stops us from cheating.

Did you have sex with him? Are you still a virgin? If you had sex, you gave away the only thing that makes you pure and beautiful. No self-respecting guy would ever want to be with you. You fucked that up. The only guys who would ever want to date a girl like you is players who don't truly love you and just want sex.

>>18325085
>love
something females invented. only cucks can pedestalize a vagina so much that they can create a really strong feeling (which is just infatuation x100) and call it love

you're also not supposed to be comfortable. when you get too comfortable you'll lose interest in him. the key to a perfect relationship is keeping the female a tiny bit insecure. not as much as you are right now, but you'll come to terms with it.

>>18325091
also they are correct. i'm not saying that your bf could lay off the porn a bit, esp. if he's a porn addict. that's no good if he faps 5x a day. he's wasting all his sexual energy on stuff that isn't you. if he has the occasional fap 2-3x a week that's not a problem, but fapping every day is.

we're not bashing you, we're just telling you how it is.

>>18325085
Wah wah wah, grow up.

If the map doesn't fit the territory it isn't the territory you try to remodel.

>>18324346
>we are both against pornography
No just you. A guy who doesn't watch porn is rare to come by.
He just didn't want you to hate him for watching porn, which it seems you kind of do

>and trust my bf again
Well it's not like he cheated on you, he lied to you.
So really it's up to you. Are you mad he lied about porn or mad that he lied in general.
If you're mad about the porn than the problem is on you.
Judging from the fact that you feel insecure and have self esteem issues regarding porn probably means you're not mature enough for a relationship or need therapy.
If you're mad about the fact he lied to you than you need probably need couple counseling or something along those lines of a big talk.

Just out of curiosity, have you had sex before?

>>18325102
>My wife and I are also extremely anti-pornography
Interesting

>We're also quite right wing Christian conservatives though
Opinion disregarded

>>18325131
Thank you for this thought provoking and meaningful post, Anon.

>>18324346
>He always tells me that he doesn't even think about other women

Well that's the most obvious lie of all time. Are you really that naive?

>>18325102
You see, all this time I thought we were just like your wife and you. And he keeps telling me he still thinks it's degenerate etc. and that he doesn't masturbate which might be true since he's into fitness and gets gains pretty fast, he could not do it if he kept losing his testosterone. But why does he watch it then? I found searches every 3-5 days or so.
>>18325114
Yes I had , because my ultimate goal is marriage and his also.

>>18325142

Well you screwed the pooch on that one. If finding the perfect guy was so important to you, you should have waited. When you date an alpha male type who loves his biceps more than he loves you, you run into the problem of infidelity. They don't want love, they want sex.

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>>18325085
You want the truth? No bullshit?

If you beat pic, he'll only think about other women 5% of the time when he's with you.

Cut your losses. Maybe you can find another guy who actually loves you and will forgive you for being a whore. He's not the one for you.

>>18325142
>he doesn't masturbate which might be true since he's into fitness and gets gains pretty fast, he could not do it if he kept losing his testosterone

Can't tell if you're trolling, or stupid.

>>18325085
Pornography only damages relationships if he's not having sex with you anymore because he's watching it too much.
How is your sex life?
Porn is merely fantasy. Much like dreaming of being the president of the world or having superpowers, you cannot act on these fantasies because that's all they are.
Porn is used an outlet to release lust and urges.
Think about it this way, if it was nature to constantly look at other women, then why would he be with you? He would have no reason to be with you if that were the case.
The problem is with you

>>18325085
Enjoy fantasy land, OP

>>18325142
>he could not do it if he kept losing his testosterone
Do people still believe this myth?

>>18325142
Then he's probably doing some autistic hedonistic shit where he gets off to the idea of how much you'd hate it if you found out.
That doesn't mean that this is beyond repair though. You can still work things out with him, especially if the ultimate goal is marriage and you both agree on that.
Not masturbating is 100% a lie as well. As people above have stated, men do have high sex drives. That doesn't mean that men have no control over their sexual urges. 3-5 days is pretty standard, so he's lying about masturbation for sure.

Either whip him back into shape or drop his ass. It's up to you to decide if he's worth the time or not. From the sound of it though, he isn't anywhere near as committed as you are. He's taking you for granted, which is a dangerous mindset to slip into after such a long time.

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>>18325163
Not OP, but here is the thing. Guys can't actually not think about other women and watch porn.

This is the onyx-pill for women.

Idk what to tell you. It is what it is.

>>18325085
>true male nature is to look at other women no matter how much they love only one

It is indeed. Looking at women, finding other women attractive, is just normal.

>THAT fact is what makes me want to kill myself, do you get it now?

Not really. He's with you. Which would indicate that he thinks you're better than all those other women he finds attractive. I'm not sure how that is suicide inducing.

> If I can want only him, then he can want only me.

Finding other women attractive doesn't mean that he wants to be with anyone else. You really want to honestly tell me that you find no other person attractive? Because if that's the case, there is something wrong with you.

>Pornography only damages relationships

It's never damaged my relationship.

>>18325142
>he doesn't masturbate which might be true since he's into fitness and gets gains pretty fast, he could not do it if he kept losing his testosterone
I deadlift lmao4.5plates and jerk off twice a day. My best friends are even worse and they deadlift 500lbs and shit.

>>18325191
With straps and belt or what? Mixed grip?

>>18325218
Chalk and mixed grip. Won't touch belt before 5pl8s.

>>18325126
Yes I had, and I never said no, even when it hurt me and when I was sick, so maybe I am stupid after all. I am mad at lying about porn, not lying itself. If he lied about something else, I wouldn't be so mad.
>>18325140
Not naive, he really hates other women in that way and is not interested in anyone else. Even those porn sluts looked like me which is why it makes me mad even more.

get over it, everyone watches porn. I used to get annoyed by the fact that my partner would watch porn but i got over it. Now i watch porn together with him and i couldn't care less if he watches it alone, i do it too.

>>18325142
>gets gains pretty fast, he could not do it if he kept losing his testosterone.
That's not a thing

>>18325142
>he's into fitness and gets gains pretty fast
are the gains better on the hand which he masturbates with? ;)

>>18325191
>>18325223
Nigga, what rep & set range, also, stats? Stats on big three too.

>>18325160
He's not 'alpha'. I am his first and he doesn't like company of other women and we're socially awkward like 99% of 4chan. We work out together.

>>18325224
>he really hates other women in that way

Apparently not.

Stop shaming your boyfriend.

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>woman speaking in WE
>holds true only for her

every fucking time

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>>18325223
That is actually really impressive without belt.

>>18325238
you sound fat im gonna abort thread now

>>18325238
>talking in WE again

hahahahaha some memes just write themselves

>>18325239
But he keeps saying he does. I mean, I must confess, I watched some ISIS beheading videos, it doesn't mean I support what they do, but somehow I still watched it..lol So maybe that's the case with him because among other searches there were lot of anti-porn things that I also search and few times he told me he's no expert but who cares. If he watches it to 'learn' something, he better not. I don't care.

>>18325253
I would rather hang myself than become fat , ever.

>>18325254
but WE are, i know him for 5 years, and you never even saw any of us

>>18325234
Build up to 3x5. 440dl, 335squat, 275bench. All for reps.

6'0 - 190lb

>>18325249
Thanks.

>>18325085
Thats about as much resentment that men feel over that fact that any women theyre with will have already done a loop or two on the cock-carousel and do slutty shit for past dudes.

>tl;dr, life sucks and then you die OP

Get over yourself or BTFO

Sorry if this has already been asked, but why are you against porn so much? As a teen I never really explored my sexuality so I didn't know much about porn. Once I started dating my BF, it was weird to think about him watching porn even though he was able to bang me. Now I see it as an outlet to relieve sexual urges when we can't bang (e.g. I'm tired, on my period, etc). I look at porn very infrequently and it's still very vanilla stuff. I don't want to watch porn with my BF but I've asked what his fetishes are and he told me (very vanilla too). Sex helps him sleep and I know when he spends 15 minutes in the bathroom with the fan on and door lock he's most likely watching porn, and I'm fine with that. If he can watch porn and relieve his sexual urges when I'm unable to instead of actually banging someone else, then I'll take it.

Also
>going through your BF's Gmail account without his permission
Why though? Do you guys do "cheat checks" or did your curiosity get the best of you? If I went through my BF's history I know I'd find some porn sites mixed in with the thousands of other pages he visits. My porn visits would stick out like a sore thumb but he'd probably just laugh if he saw them. You know how those radio talk show host always tell the girl she was looking for trouble when she went through her man's phone and found selfies on some broad saved? If you know you're going to find something you don't want to see, don't go looking for it.

>>18325224
>Even those porn sluts looked like me which is why it makes me mad even more
No anon, that's a good thing. He probably watched those girls because he likes banging you but wasn't able to, so he watched some girls who look like you get banged instead.

You should be worried if he watched a lot of videos of girls who don't look like you at all (different ethnicity, body type, etc) or traps.

>>18325085
Sweetheart, he does love you. In fact, I'd argue that the very little amount he watched is proof. Most guys into porn probably spend hours watching video after video. I'd feel guilty watching porn when I was with my ex, but not because she gave a shit that I watched or didn't watch, we were just happy then, together.

He doesn't give a shit about some amateur couple or some porn actress, he loves you. In the same way you will watch a regular film with a good looking actor and catch feels, but you will still love him at the end of the day when you both exit the theater. Only difference is, porn is an extreme form of the same thing.

He felt guilty and that shows he actually cares. Some other guy may have just told you to fuck off and stop judging him. He on the other hand actually cares.

Forgive.

>>18325502
>Most guys into porn probably spend hours watching video after video.

Um, no. It has never taken me hours to achieve an orgasm myself, and once I cum, porn doesn't really have any appeal. Like, 20 minutes maybe, but hours? If you watch video after video after video for hours on end, you aren't into porn, you have an addiction.

>>18325516
Welp. Then I've been addicted to porn I guess. Now a days I just feel guilty watching it, but for different reasons. Before, I could go hours browsing shit.

Point is, I'm single, miserable for years and porn helped. Not really, because it just deteriorated my health and made me hate myself. But whatever.

People make whole online accounts dedicated to browsing porn, so it's not uncommon. Fucked up as that sounds.

And feeling guilty browsing some shit when you're in a happy relationship is a natural reaction. I know I felt guilt.. desu I only browsed it when she treated me like shit, and I STILL felt guilt..disgust.. but it didn't help really, I'd still be upset.

>>18325085
every guy finds other girls attractive. doesnt mean they love them holy fuck. maybe you actually arent enough

>>18325321
Yeah, but I'm not a hypocrite..he is my only one, so I have no slutty past, I was a child when I entered relationship ( 17 yrs old)
>>18325428
Personally, i find porn really degenerate and degrading to women. I'm not even religious or a feminist, it just o goes against my morals. Also, it's just in my nature to go crazy when someone I love watches other women because I think they would be better for him :/
>>18325502
>>18325533
Maybe I should forgive him then, but how to remove images of other women out of my head and stop crying? I know he felt guilty but then I asked him what would you do if you found out i was watching porn? He said: i'd break up with you probably and be very sad that i'm not enough for you...do you see the hypocrisy? So that's why he probably feels guilty now, I think he at least sympathizes with me.

22 female here

I've been in a long distance relationship with my boo for a year. And believe me, I TOTALLY understand what you mean. The thought of my boyfriend jacking off to other chicks make me sad and depressed. But I honestly think I watch more porn than him lmao. But when I talk about porn he does get jealous too. I usually watch cartoon/hentai because it's all fake. We both are into video games and I dress up or pretend to be a character while he is another one.

I'm sorry to hear that he lied to you, he shouldn't have lied. When I watch porn, those guys don't mean anything to me, so I know that they don't mean anything to him. What kind of porn does he like? Why don't you re-create some things he's into? Don't lose trust in him, I'm sure he loves you. Everyone watches porn but it doesn't mean those whores mean anything :)

>>18326001
If it was cartoon I would not maybe mind because those girls are pixels, not real ones. But when his friend sent him a screenshot of his desktop, he sent it then to me and said: Oh look what a weirdo, he watches hentai..later I found among other searches exactly that kind of porn. We are also both into video games. Which means he uses torrent a lot, and there were times where i found suspicious things on torrent also but download was stopped at 2% so i thought no big deal, he remembered me and gave up..yeah, right lol. I found mostly teen porn, blonde pornstars etc. so no stupid milf with big boobs although I am certain he used to watch it before but then I told him to stop because it's not normal, he's in relationship with a young girl who doesn't have big breasts ffs. Btw it was 2 years ago, when I was at his place and he searched for something that starts with 'm' and milf popped out..

>>18325270
120kg bench for reps is the most impressive one imo

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"I HAtE My GeNDeR FOr BeINg SUcH MANiPulAtiVe sLuTS" So take the easy way out, you already think it, ovbi ur life is fucking over u broad...

>>18325270
Which mode are you? Thicc? Built and lean?

>>18324346
>He always tells me that he doesn't even think about other women, I am the only one for him etc.
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAASOSFHDOFHSDF

>>18326247
well, not everybody is a slave to vagina

>>18326265
Women are so much more than their the vaginas. There is tits, ass, legs, beautiful hair like Alsion Brie, soft skin, etc.

I get why ur guy jerks off to porn now, you dont seem the least bit satisfying and he has to put up with all your bullshit. Props to him for being so kind. On the other hand, you probably threatened him that youd kill yourself if he left tho... idk...

>>18325983
Oh no, hypocricy is something different, that's something he needs to realize on his own. But ya know, just don't overthink it. People change.

>>18324346
>Recently I logged into his gmail account and viewed 'My activity' section
Strike 1
>he watches it for 'educational' purposes and boredom
Strike 2
>I feel like shit and sometimes have suicidal thoughts
>I hate my gender for being such manipulative sluts
Strike 3

Sometimes you need to focus on maturing as a human being. Both of you need to do that, because right now you both seem too fucking stupid to make your relationship work.

Why is it such a big deal that we jerkoff to other women?

>>18326271
There is brain too. Also, i have all those except for fuckin small chest..
>>18326273
I am satisfying, and about who has to put up with whose bullshit? Well, all financial problems he had - I solved them. Who got him a job? -Me. Who got him out of depression when he was unemployed?- Me. Who solved all his issues with weed and prevented going to jail many times? Me. And this is thanks to me? Looking at other women who would probably leave him after taking a look at his wallet? Pfft

>>18326289
Because 'monogamy' and 'reservations' and inclinations to feel 'special and loved' so just some bullshit want for attention

>>18326292
Ur really bitchy, I feel for ur dude so bad rn. Im jerking off with him. This is stressful...

>>18326292
>I found a weak and shitty person who would be able to handle my neurotic bullshit and after helping them become a better person they realise they no longer have to put up with my neurotic bullshit

Many such cases!

>>18326289
Women are not us. They don't understand what it's like to have a dick. It's like two souls sharing the same body. One of them is saying no while the other is going "do it do it do it your gfs best friend is hot man yeah bro we want to cum inside her damn she have nice body".

We live with this 24/7. We have to release to stay sane.

>>18326292
I don't think that's how he intended to "thank you", be a little more realistic.. shit happens. He doesn't care about those videos, photos, people. Those things aren't his life, you are.

>>18326292
I mean to be so high and mighty and hold it over his head like that, really I hope he breaks up with your selfish ass, he can do wayyyyyyyyy the fuck better. Porn doesnt bitch and has no 'emotional bullshit'

>>18326298
What did nature mean by programming us like that.

>>18326292
That's why you have to be such an amazing sexual partner that he doesn't find porn satisfying and can't get it hard to anything that isn't you.

>>18326292
>There is brain too
You're not really the best person to argue that case.

>>18326294
Why? I was the one who helped him always with everything and all I expected was love and not giving attention to women on internet. I would pay thousands just for him to stop...I don't care about money, I never asked him to return anything, I GAVE it to him, not borrowed. Sometimes I wish love was for sale.

>>18326298
How do you think it's for guys that lift? Our libido is in another fucking galaxy altogether.

>>18326307
You really are a bitch.
I hope you're baiting or your boyfriend leaves you.

'Who fucked up the relationship because they couldnt give good head? -Me' lol

>>18326301
SELFISH? dude, I literally GAVE him $5000 ( which is worth wayy more in our country), I never asked for anything back except love..how is this selfish? Other women wouldn't even want to look at him despite being good-looking because ALL WOMEN ARE WHORES AND GOLDDIGERS. only few of them are not like me but obviously we get worse treatment..

>>18326317
Lol. Dont expect anything if its out of 'love' selfish cunt.

>>18326307
He's not giving attention to women on the internet, he's giving attention to his dick, the women on the internet just speed the process along. If you want him to stop looking at them you can speed the process along yourself.

Also this,
>I was the one who helped him always with everything and all I expected was love and not giving attention to women on internet
Is really fucked up. If a man said, "I've helped this lady financially therefore she should love me and never look at other men," people would call that abuse you fucking creep.

>>18326317
Ur honestly being a porn, the thing you so hate, rn, "heres this money, now pretend to love me and give me attention. Wah"

>>18326317
You seriously must be baiting.

>>18326317
You know in many countries giving someone money in exchange for love is called prostitution. You gave him 5k, you've been together 5 years, that's 1k per year. You got a fucking bargain.

>>18326320
It IS out of love, which means I expect love. And it is not selfish to expect love.
>>18326322
Well, I would call that man a completely normal person who knows what he wants. But, wasn't it like this since always? Men provided and if women tried to cheat and flirt with others they would get beaten? It's not abuse to expect love

>>18326330
Ah, then clearly your only option is to beat him. Good luck you fucking psycho.

>>18326330
>It IS out of love, which means I expect love. And it is not selfish to expect love.
It is selfish to expect anything back.
If you love someone and you are nice to them, you do it because you love them, not because you want anything back.

>>18326330
I just hope youre boyfriend sees all this and treats you like a piece of shit after this. Can someone like look this guy up tho? Is that possible? We need a search team. Haha.

>>18326326
Nah, women have money too. Well, in this case, my father lol
>>18326328
But don't you know that it's not prostitution if it's about man? Also, it wasn't in exchage for love, he loved me before that ofc, but I just wanted him to continue. I was always there for him and even when it hurt me and when I was sick I didn't tel him 'no'.

>>18326339
Monnies cant buy you real love bb...

>>18324346
>He always tells me that he doesn't even think about other women
Even if this isn't bait. Women, you're not 16 anymore.

>>18326331
what? i would never raise a hand on him, but on myself..well, maybe
>>18326332
I did it because I love him, but I just wanted him to stop looking at porn, is that so hard for men? If it is, I give up and I am staying unhappy for the rest of my life.
>>18326333
He doesn't have to see. I told him everything I told you. He was afraid to lose me, he thought I would break up with him..I can't , I love him too much , I think i would even forgive him killing a man if he ever does it

>>18325085
Is this bait?

>>18324346

snooping bitch mind your own

hes not sorry or ashamed he just said that because he got caught out

leave him so he can be with someone normal

>>18326351
Ur whacked as fuck. I would fucking end any relationship with a girl who would let me murder someone! Two whacks dont make a non-psycho. Fuck ur just sad and desperate honestly...

>>18326351
There are some men who don't look at porn.
I've been with my boyfriend for 9 years and he doesn't masturbate or look at porn.
Just very few of them.

>>18326357
I wouldn't let him, but I would forgive him. What if someone tries to do me harm or to his sister and there is no escape other than killing someone? I am not talking about serial killer cases..
>>18326356
And by normal you mean someone who doesn't care about porn? Well, guess what. He told me that if he had a girl who watched porn or supported it, he would break up immediately so..

>>18326360
>I've been with my boyfriend for 9 years and he doesn't masturbate or look at porn
Manhattan project.

>>18326366
If someone tried to do you harm, it probably be for the best... You are so sad, honestly. You must be joking about all this or really afraid of being alone, which then you dont love him honestly.

>>18326368
I literally wouldn't give a shit if he did.
I look at porn and masturbate, always have been very open about it.
He just doesn't like fapping. When he wants to cum, he just asks me to suck his dick.
So, whatever?

>>18326360
This is worse than OP desu

>>18326360
>my boyfriend for 9 years and he doesn't masturbate or look at porn
God you're stupid.

>>18326376
Lol, "Its so diffcult to jackoff... Give me head you whore?" -'yes daddy'

>>18326360
>9 years and he doesn't masturbate or look at porn
>9 years
>doesn't masturbate
>OR look at porn
>9 years
>no nude 9/10 women
>not fapping
>no lesbian porn
>3285 days
>Im fucking plying

>>18326371
I am afraid of feeling alone, not being alone. You can be in a relationship but still feel alone if someone does harm to you in physical or psychological way and that is far worse. We see each other every day, he gives me max. attention and I am really grateful, but the images of blonde silicon whores can't get out of my head.

>>18324346
Any non asexual guy who says he doesn't watch porn is a liar. It doesn't mean he doesn't love you or that he doesn't find you attractive. Both of you just need to be less ashamed of your urges. Me amd my wife freely talk about porn, sex, whatever. Shit I'll even show her dirty pics that my co workers show around and we have a good laugh. Just lighten up a little and it'll be alright.

>>18326386
So I'm a whore for sucking my boyfriend's dick when he's horny? Lol.
Also the daddy thing is really cringey.

>>18326384
He really doesn't. I sincerely wouldn't care if he did, wouldn't change a thing for me.
I watch porn, masturbate, and it'd be more than okay for me if he wanted to fap.
He just doesn't like it. He didn't even look at porn before we met.

>>18326379
It's pretty sad but whatever.

>>18326393
You act like he did something that he deserves to be on death row for... youre such a bitch.

>>18326360
>my boyfriend for 9 years and he doesn't masturbate or look at porn
If he was able to convince you of this, he's either a genius or you're the biggest fucking moron alive.

>>18326396
He is definitly watched other babes fucking. You're a good gf for not caring though.

>>18326398
Aye, whatever that guy is doing, hes doing right. Dont ruin it for him haha. Shh... she doesnt notice.

>>18326397
Death row? Those are your word, not mine. I feel like i am on the death row just for being a woman, a fucking object for pleasure and nothing else. Someone replaceable. Look, I just know I'm depressed and suicidal because of this, I never said I was right, I just asked for help, how to stop thinking about other women because in the end, I probably think about them more than he does..

>>18326405
Then kill yourself bitch, he would get over you. Probably be a lot happier and wouldnt actually need porn to satisfy himself...

>>18326396
>He just doesn't like it
That's not how anything works.

>>18326407
Why exactly are you so rude to me? He doesn't need it now either, but men never get enough. They always want more and more and more.. I just know that porn made me hate my own gender and hate myself.

>>18326401
He watched porn a few times when he was 12 and was repulsed by it. He fapped to erotica like a middle aged woman till he started dating 3 years later, and then basically never did it because he always had a girlfriend.
I think he fapped for the last time in 2013 and he was sexting with me. I asked him this weekend.

Helps that he has a low-ish sex drive and he really just has to ask if he wants to fuck, I never turned him down in 9 years.

>>18326398
Why would he lie to me for nearly 10 years about something entirely insignificant?
I really wouldn't give a shit if he watched porn. I honestly would prefer if he did.

>>18326414
Wah youre life is so hard. Either get over yourself or continue to believe the bullshit you think and just end your pathetic sad life, jesus. This 4chan, get over it.

>>18326351
>i would never raise a hand on him, but on myself..well, maybe
Next time you see your boyfriend thank him for me, sincerely, thank him for the rest of the men in the world. He's really taking one for the team with you. Fucking hell.

This just goes to show why 9/10 times men prefer hands or sex dolls over women. Theres no emotional bullshit drama or need for support or anything. Just ejaculation. Lol

>>18326415
I'm either of them, but that isn't normal and is actually really unhealthy. Poor fucking guy. You should see a doctor, srs.

>>18326426
He doesn't know it tho. Only you who read this thread know that I have suicidal thoughts. I can't tell this to anyone. I must keep my reputation, and you are all anons. So you don't know me.

>>18326426
Agree 100%, a real hero.

>>18326433
We have a search party working on it. Please do worry!

>>18326415
He is probably gay. I'm not even memeing.

>>18326430
Sex happens because of love, at least to me. If it's different with men, then it's really sad. A gym is a good stress-reliever, and he spends 1-2 hrs every day there. Me too ( not that anyone cares because gym won't give me implant D cup breasts)

>>18326437
Hahah ok and how do you search it exactly? We both don't have social media.

>>18326442
Youre an idiot. In denial.

>>18326447
Literally I could just make a thread on 4chan about this and 99% of guys who see whats happening here, would bump this and then get it all over the internet. He would see it eventually. We would figure it out. The internet is powerful.

>>18326442
>Sex happens because of love
Yeah, that's why ducks rape the ever-loving shit out of each other, because of love.

Not letting your bf fap is the safest route to have him cheating on you with a better looking woman.

>>18326439
He isn't gay just because he doesn't like fapping, holy shit.
He likes women.

>>18326431
We already went to a doctor, he has low-ish testosterone (even if still in the healthy range). It is odd, but not unhealthy or tremendously abnormal.
He's not dying just because he doesn't fap on brazzer all day, no worries.

>>18326453
Or just like make a Reddit thread, he probably uses that... We know he has a gmail, theyve been together for 5yrs, he likes milfs, shes crazy, she is clingy, she doesnt know how to trust, and hes a hero...

>>18326465
>he has low-ish testosterone
Poor motherfucker.

>>18326471
I know.
But he gets his dick sucked every day since he was 16 if that is of any consolation.

>>18326448
Probably.
>>18326456
He can do it with images of me in his head, doesn't need porn. No justification. Also, he would never cheat on me, just like may other moral guys who would never cheat on their gf, it's not that hard.
>>18326453
And what would you achieve with this? I just asked for an advice on 4chan because I'm anonymous here and you will probably forget me once this thread is archived.

>>18326478
Not him, but how the absolutely bloody fuck does a man still have low test after getting blown everyday.

>>18326484
>He can do it with images of me in his head, doesn't need porn.
How kind of you.

Do you tell him when he can piss and take a shit too? Did you train him?

>>18326487
Fucking this! What the fuck do you look like? Do you peg him or something?!

wtf is this bullshit

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>>18326484
>He can do it with images of me in his head, doesn't need porn
Clearly he can't, and does.

>>18326488
No, I didn't. But he sure trained me :) He was paranoid for most of our relationship and entered my accounts just like i did. Never found anything, said sorry for not trusting you and moved on.

>>18326491
Yeah, we have said that about youre post for quite a while now. Im sure your bf feels the same way too...

Also OP, just out of curiosity, have you ever considered that he only stays with you out of obligation/for your money, and never loved you to begin with?

>>18326498
Hes getting money and bjs and can do anything and get away with it and she wont leave him, what the fuck. Why didnt I think of that...

>>18326498
No, he really loved me even before he knew I had lot of money saved. Money was just a bonus and I was there in the right time. I mean, I offered him money myself , he never asked me.

>>18326500
You see, he has it just fine.

>>18326504
>he really loved me even before he knew I had lot of money saved
And you know that how? He was on drugs at the time, and facing prison. And you know he lies to you, since he has been watching porn. How can you be sure he ever loved you at all?

>>18326500
I'unno man, being owned by a rich master or freedom. I mean he's not allowed to look at porn, imagine what other stipulations there are? Guy must be going through a philosophical crisis every day dealing with her. I'd watch that movie.

>>18326487
It is low-ish, not morbidly low or anything.
His sex drive is generally not that high. If we go by his needs, we fuck once every 4-6 days. He can easily go for 2 weeks without a boner if I'm not around, he gets completely asexual if I'm not with him (and I really do not like it).
But, yeah, I'm horny all the time so he probably gets more pussy than he needs.

>>18326491
5'6, 135 lbs. Hourglass figure, D cup breasts, round butt, pretty thick thighs and legs because I work out 4 times a week. Pretty cute face, pale, green eyes, long brown hair.
Not unfuckable, I guess.

He shivers any time I go near his ass tho :(

>>18326518
>green eyes, long brown hair
Please post pic. I have to see this.

>>18326511
This is the only thing I'm sure about- that he loves me, I never questioned that. 0,25 g of weed before sleeping, that's not much, he was 'sober' in the day until midnight. He lied about porn because he was probably afraid of losing me and he knows how much I hate porn and other women.

>>18326507
Yeah cause hes using you lol.

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>>18326518
>He shivers any time I go near his ass tho
Rape him to assert dominans.

>>18326517
He's only not allowed to look at porn, everything else allowed. And everything he asks me to do, I do it.

>>18326525
Then what the fuck is your problem here, other than the fact that you yourself are a neurotic, self-obsessed freak? If you're sure he loves you, if you're sure he only lied because he's afraid of losing you, if you accept the fact men are pigs and women are whores and that's that, why has this got you so worked up?

>>18326484
I'm in a LDR with my bf, and I provide him with enough material to fap to, because I know that men are visual creatures. They are not women.
I don't mind if it he still watches a bit of porn, but I DON'T EVER want to know what he faps to. If I would find out he faps to girls who look very different from me, I'd just become depressed.
I would get angry though if he'd watch porn the weeks I'm staying with him, since we fuck 3 times a day then and I won't leave his dick alone, and I'd get offended if that still wouldn't be enough.

>>18326529
Men usually hate being used financially by women. But I don't mind him using me, as long as he loves me. Who wouldn't want a rich gf if he's poor?

>>18325102
This is a place for people without mental issues, go to /b/

>>18326530
Thanks for the advice, anon. I'll rape him later.

>>18326523
Not posting a pic of my face on here, I'm sorry.
They're not cool green eyes.

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>>18326518
>>18326530
Do this. Warm your boy up for Chad.

>>18326534
Because I'm angry at those facts probably, I don't want men to be pigs and women to be whores ( although I think it's generalizing).
>you yourself are a neurotic, self-obsessed freak
probably this

>>18326544
The fact that a man like that has such a feminine pose is making me so mad.

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>>18326544
Also, remember to have have him eat cum out of Chads condom that Chad used to fuck you.

>>18326546
Holy fuck, fuck me sideways and call me Cinderella, we actually got through to her. Rejoice, Anons, she actually does listen. Now here's the big question, OP, and it's a question you're not going to like but I want you to think it over very carefully. You've identified the problem. It's taken fucking forever, but you now realise what's happening and why it's happening. Here's the question;

What are you going to do about it?

You just need to move on. Nothing can change what happened and you can try all you want to remove the images and thoughts but your brain doesnt have a delete option. Seriously just forgive him and let it go.

>>18326554
>fucking with condoms
Blergh.

He can lick Chad's cum right from my pussy.

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>>18326560
Nice.

>>18326558
I don't know, that's why I made this thread lol
But probably accept those facts and try not to think about it. And this part with me being neurotic and self-obsessed..I don't really know what to do

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>>18324346
>watches it for 'educational' purposes
kek good one, your bf is a funny man at least.

Maybe try to be more attractive
like this >>18325161

>>18326579
I am something like her, just smaller boobs.

>>18326579
Source please

>>18326584
>I look like this girl with very large boobs. Just flat.

Lol.

>>18326573
>Suicidal thoughts
>Misplaced anger
>Neurosis
>I don't really know what to do

This is what therapy is for.

>>18326573
You made this fucking thread honestly on here with your obsession, you made this on 4chan looking for help? What? Hahaha lets hope I dont get abused then for being psycotic... haha

>>18326584
>I am something like her
really?
reaaally?

lol really doubt it

>>18326588
I have good feminine figure, but my boobs are not that big. not flat, but not big either.
>>18326589
Therapy costs a lot but maybe it is the option.

>>18326589
Oh I thought this is what 4chan was for... ?¿

>>18326596
What's so strange? Every other girl on the street I see is like her or a landwhale or anorexic bitch.
Look, if I wasn't good looking I wouldn't enter a relationship, ever. Imagine what kind of hell that would be. Then I would know he really has reason to look at other girls. But now it' just on some paranoia level and crashed self-esteem.

>>18326602
Therapy's for when you want to fix those things, 4chan's for when you want to wallow with like-minded individuals/can't afford therapy.

>>18326610
>What's so strange? Every other girl on the street I see is like her or a landwhale or anorexic bitch.
yeah you see, on 4chin I would assume girls don't look like pretty girls I see around campus
unless you have proof

>>18326615
4chan is for mentally unstable people, I am one of them. It has nothing to do with looks. There are ugly people who are not crazy or autistic.

>>18326620
yeah it's just my assumption you know, and until I have reasons to believe otherwise I'm gonna keep believing in my assumption.

>>18326624
Well, if you want me to post pic of myself, not gonna happen. But why would someone who's into fitness date someone ugly? Doesn't make sense. You see, you have half-proof.

>>18326636
ok :)
maybe that's why he watches porn, idk lol

>>18326641
But I look good. I know those sluts look better according to men's impossibly achievable high standards, and it causes depression

lol you sound terrible and clueless

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>>18326648
I feel bad for you, but there's nothing I can do to help. Have my condolence.

>>18326660
Post the fucking source already god fucking dammit

>>18326292
Anon, I did (and still do) a lot of that stuff for my BF too but he still looks at porn. And so do I. Your biggest beef seems to be that he lied to you, which is fair to be upset about. The two of you promised each other you wouldn't watch porn and after some snooping you find his search history; however, I can bet you another $5k that he didn't do it to betray you. Your anger would be more justified if he went out of his way to actually have sexual intercourse with another human being. As many anons have already said, men have urges and as stupid of an excuse that may sound to you, it's the truth. Do you really expect him to hold his urges until he sees you? Would you be willing to bang/give head 3-4 times a day to 100% satisfy him? I love my BF, but sometimes I'm really busy with school so I can't rush home and blow him at any given moment during the day. Does he jack off when alone? I'm 100% certain of it. Does he think about those women when we bang? Eh. Maybe. My mind wanders sometimes but I don't actually imagine my BF to be someone else. In that moment, we are physically and mentally connecting, something you can't do with a pre-recorded sexual act where the woman doesn't even know her viewers exist.

No one is trying to be a dick to you here. In today's society, porn is easily accessible. You and your BF need to sit down together and discuss this like adults. I'm going to tell you right now that if you give him the ultimatum between you and porn, he will most likely choose you but still look at porn. Maybe he'll be more cautious about clearing out his history. YOU need to decide if you can handle being in a relationship with someone who watches porn for a few minutes when you're gone but will only physically and mentally share that special interaction with you. If not, then you should leave.

>tfw I literally don't have time to look at porn, between my work, my hobby and my time with new gf

How do these guys do it? it would take too long for me to have to look for the vids that turn me on, then find a good torrent, or watch it at some shitty streaming sites where it stops to buffer every 5 minutes. Not worth the hassle.

>>18326787
The thing is , he doesn't have such a high libido, maybe every 3 days or so, but that's when I am available and he still watches. He says he doesn't do it to fap but to learn something and implement it in real life. Could this be true? There are still other ways to learn, what about pre-internet era?
>>18326807
In 'My activity' it said somewhere between 4-5 a.m. , which is when we stop playing games usually and he 'goes to sleep'..I don't know about others tho

>>18327192
How old is your partner?

'Cause in all likelihood you're just too sex-negative for him to be honest about how frequently he's whacking it.

>>18327215
25. He used to do it everyday before ( back when I was a naive child and thought he was thinking about me,maybe he did because he always messaged me during it lol) . I am not sex-negative, I am porn-negative. There is a big difference. Pro-sex, anti-porn. that's me.