So, /adv/, I'll try to make it short.
I'm slightly fat, very lazy and insecure to the max, and I've since long been suppressing any desire for achievement (mainly in social contexts because - as sad as it sounds - I really seem to have no higher goal in life than having people admire me) for fear of failure and rejection (and, later, even effort).
The problem is: a part of my mind won't have any of that.
No matter how hard one part of my brain tries to suppress it, the other one wants me to be nothing but the best, in as many ways as possible (it's as impossible as it sounds), just to have the first part readily reply "Nah, it's far too much work and pain".
This cognitive dissonance is driving me mad.
How do I stop wanting to be perfect?
Reminding yourself the truth everyday, there's no such thing as perfect or the best. Everyone is is different, be enough for you
>>18311991
I don't think I can ever be enough for me.
>>18311994
No one will ever be enough to themselves, you're not alone in this. You can do what makes you feel better if it isn't bad for you. We're all in this infinite search of self acceptance, unfortunately
>>18312004
>>18311991
So you're saying that, if I tell myself that every day I will eventually start believing it?
Because that sounds preposterous.
>>18312022
It kinda is but it's the only hope I have left, to keep reminded of something that isn't going to happen so I don't allude myself. Actually a therapist told me so, maybe he's a bad one