So I need help on how to cope. I'm a senior in high school, 18. I've got a huge, and I mean HUGE crush on my history teacher from sophomore year. She is 32 but she doesn't look a day over 20 and we click really well. For the past two years I've visited her a lot after school and we sometimes spend 2 to 3 hours just chatting about life. I help her around the class and school sometimes and we are as close as a teacher and student can get, probably well past that. She's beautiful, compassionate, has amazing aspirations, literally my perfect woman, I love everything about her and we really click. She even stated that I'm mature well past my years and she admires me for that, she could see me being a great husband.
I need advice because I don't know what to do. I know I'll never be able to be with her, I even briefly considered asking her out to coffee or a museum after I graduate but that's just a fantasy tale. I know she's single, but I don't want to ruin anything or make it awkward, and besides, I'm just some kid, I offer almost nothing to her. I don't even have low self esteem, I consider myself fairly attractive, I'm somewhat /fit/, but damn. The age/experience gap makes me feel worthless, and on top of that society has a negative stigma for that kinda thing, also I think it would be illegal for us to hook up. She probably wants someone her own age.
How do I stop thinking about her? How do I not spend every waking moment wanting to blow my fucking brains out because I'll never be able to be with her? I would give anything to hold her in my arms for one night, just once. I can't deal with this, it's driving me insane. I can't get her out of my head.
>>18307767
Can you live without that blankey you had as a toddler?
>>18307767
So when you graduate just ask her out. She might at least fuck you good and it'll be awesome, or she might say no and yoiu'll never see her again anyway.
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>>18307767
Agreed. I would keep in touch with her after graduation and work towards becoming the man worthy of her. Try dating her in a few years maybe
>>18307798
This
>>18307767
Wait until after you graduate, like most of these other anons say.
I gotta admit though, for some reason, your post made me feel pretty sappy for some reason. I have a good feeling that, at the very least, you're not gotta fuck up completely if you play your cards right.
>>18307798
This
To be honest, just get out in the world. Don't be so dramatic (like posting suicide silhouettes). I had a girl or two that I was smitten with in highschool who quickly went on the backburner when I left that place. Two years later I was at a party and some girl came and started talking to me and it took me a minute to recognize that it was that girl I was crushing on in highschool. I know it sounds like a Chad story, but just hear me out. Chill out, you're 18. Just enjoy the hormones. Fuck some girl around you that's crushing on you and make her happy. Ask teacher on an innocent date (key work innocent) and don't force shit, but make opportunities happen. Sit on benches and chat. Get ice cream and chat more. Walk in a park nearby and - you guessed it - sit on a bench.
I wouldn't bank on too much. You'll probly just get a hug. Maybe a peck on the cheek if you play it right. If she's reckless the might kiss you on the lips. If she wants to fuck, run the other way. There's no amount of pussy that can justify the shitstorm that would ensue.... that is unless it's all super super cool and you lay out expectations before hand.
>>18307798
I'm actually inclined to agree with this. If you hit it, great. If you get shot down, then heal your first heartbreak and get on with your life.
and if you don't have the sack to ask, you should just move on and treat this as a childish affectation