I'm 21 years old, I live in the US, and my life is going

Anybody?

raffing my asg off anon. join the military buddy.

>>18300836
Any other insights?

Can anyone answer my question? Or provide any insight?

>>18300718
I'm also interested in answers for these questions.

I feel like you're trying way too hard to live a fulfilling life.

It feels like you're hurtling towards disappointment as you build the lives of others around you into pristine existences.

I'd say quit it, but I'm 20, and I've been a NEET since leaving high-school where I had 2 friends, so you're likely more experienced than I am.

There might be something wrong with you because you suffer from depression.

you need to go on a success kick and find your own sense of purpose.

sense of purpose comes from within. success comes from trying.

this is probably counter-intuitive to how you feel, but it's the truth.

>>18300718
>>18301042
20 year old ignorant man here

I look at what you've written again, and I can't shake the feeling that you're looking for something that doesn't exist, and the deeper human connection is right there in your face, but you don't acknowledge it.

There's so much value in conversing with other people and seeing their perspectives.

I might just need less to feel good about my own life, but I feel like you're ultimately going to hurt yourself by expecting your life to be an incredible experience.

A part of me doesn't see what's bad about a dead-end job, but I, personally, don't get any fulfillment from any form of labor.

You probably shouldn't listen to me as it seems you've got different cognitive functions than me.

>>18301060
why are you putting yourself down so much

>>18301144
I've been called totally delusional/ignorant on this board, etc, so I might be.

I didn't really live a conventional adolescence, so there's a severe limitation to what I know about other human beings in general.

I've experienced that in order to truly understand something you must feel it first.

There's a lot of feeling that I haven't done, so I am, therefore, ignorant as to life in general.

>>18301168
well you're just a kid yet, and the adults on this board are very ignorant themselves

don't mistake this for a place of wisdom. it's just a general, anonymous board - that's the only redeeming part about it

>>18301060
Your advice is solid, only pursue things in life because you genuinely want them, not out of some perceived social expectation to do so. Don't stress over what you think you ought to be doing and just do what makes YOU happy.

>>18301042
>>18301045
>>18301060
>>18301188
OP Here

My depression comes from circumstance mostly. Lower middle class drama, nobody wanted me, (my dad literally didn't want my mom to have me when she was pregnant), yadda yadda, I could go on.

To be honest, I don't really wanna join the military aside from the discipline. I really and truly need help not making a routine, but sticking to it with consistency. And I don't know anywhere else I could get help with that.

Anyhow, another line of thought is, if I get killed out there, that's fine. I'll obviously try my hardest to avoid death and injury, but I've accepted that I could die.

>>18301208
There are other ways to develop and grow discipline.

I learned it by being forced to work and maintain a job installing cabinets.

It was so much work that it used to make me want to cry when I looked at the start of a 10 hour day.

There's a better path to the engendering of discipline than military service. Stocking for Wal-mart will probably give you the same affect. They're excessively cruel when they're mis-managed.

You can easily force yourself to work harder at your current job, and you'll have to maintain that work ethic, or you'll be out of the door.