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Am I depressed? If so, what can I do?
2017-05-04 04:44:37 Post No. 18285855
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I'm an 18 yr old male, HS senior in posh dual degree school; lives in school dorm; alone type.
As far as I can recall, I've always been lonely. Never picked up on much of the social stuff. I used to venture into extrovert territory, making jokes & basically making the whole class laugh with indecencies. But being alone was fine, too. Now, I seem like a shell of my former self.
I don't know what, or if something, even triggered that. Here's what might have: I fell in love with a girl whom I found really special; I truly never had fallen in love this way before, and I was rejected. This wasn't the first time to happen but this time this was like a knife being shoven inside my guts. Then, there's this whole school which I hate because due to my sh!t grades I feel as if everybody is better than me. As if I don't belong. I used to be a nice, average guy. I used to work out & take care of myself. I used to have dreams.
Now I'm a little shit. I don't talk anymore. I stare into the void all day long. I have let my small muscle mass melt into nothing. I look like a bum (Complete with messy long hair & half-grown mustache) in an old black jacket stained with crap. Where I live I must take a huge test to pass high school - The moment to read up on it is now, but I don't. I sleep in class. As a matter of fact, the only moment I enjoy and crave for from morning to dusk is the moment where I can retreat into my dreams. I'm tired of reality.
I can't seem to enjoy anything anymore. I gave up on video-gaming. I'm slowly starting giving up online role-playing too. Of course, my sadness always has different degrees, sometimes more stinging than others. But it's always there, even when I'm alone & enjoying myself in my room, which I used to like very much.
I've thought about killing myself, but I'm a coward. Should I drop out? Is there any thing I could do that would relieve me from all this pain? Alcohol, drugs, cigs? I'm truly at loss. I can't go on like that. I need to escape.
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>>18285855
>I need to escape.
Do it. Watch movies, books, do some exersice, anything. Fill your time.
You are young. A single girl rejecting you is not the end of the world. It feels bad, we all know it, but just do what you need to shake of that funk. Spend the weekend eating nachos and masturbating. Whatever. It'll pass soon.
How long has it been?
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>>18285861
I already watch a lot of movies & TV shows, but for anything else, I'm just too damn lazy to do anything.
I'm used to girls rejecting me, but as I said, I felt something truly special for her. She's a sweet friend & the shy/litterature type whom most of the boys usually shunned. I was just intensely attracted to her - personality, body, all.
She rejected me a first time one year ago. Then I tried again& harder & she rejected me another time, it was on the day Fidel fucking Castro died (End of November). We're still "friends" though.
And I mean sometimes I stop thinking about her (on long vacations) but either something reminds me of her or I still feel empty.
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>>18285881
If it makes you feel bad to see her, then spend less time with her. Hang out with other people man. I thought we were talking bout something that happened a week ago. A year? Dude, move the fuck on.
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>>18285891
I can't. She's moved on but I haven't. I love seeing her, thinking I still have a chance.
I'm fucken pathetic
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>>18285897
No, you are a bored 18 year old. Pathetic are the 30-somethings that talk lie you on this board.
Stop saying "I can't", and think what you have to do. As I said, spend less time with her and her friends. Do new shit with other people.
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>>18285901
Have you read the entirety of the post?
I can't ffs.
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>>18285986
Say "I can't" all you want. I bet that's gonna make it better. By the way, that's sarcasm, I don't think it's gonna help.
Come back when you are willing to try.
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>>18285994
I spent the past six months trying. I don't even want anymore. Bye anyway.
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>>18285855
You got lost in the depths of mind. Nothing stimulates your mind anymore. Only thing you could do would be sports or anything physical where your mind would reconnect with your body.
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>>18286106
I used to work out three times a week. I don't have the will to do that anymore.
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