I want to die. I am convinced I will never be happy. I've

Sell all your stuff, buy a gun, travel the world with the rest of the money, if by the time you run out of money and you still don't want to live, eat the barrel and pull the trigger.

>>18281190
The only thing I could sell is my guitar and I'd only get like $200 for it. I'm 20, I live with my dad, and I only make $10 an hour.

>>18281194
You can get a gun for that much, go check >>>/trv/ for tips on train hopping and other methods of low cost travel and boarding.

Honestly you can also just jump in front of a train and forgo the gun entirely

>>18281205
I was thinking about just cutting my wrists and bleeding out. I'll be honest, I feel bad about what my suicide would probably do to my dad but I really can't stand being alive anymore.

Absolutely sickening. Vomiting
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>>18281208
Honestly, what are you looking for here? Encouragement? Do you want us to tell you life is worth it? You're almost certainly chemically depressed, but unless you get the drive to fix it, there's no point in doing anything else really. The only thing that may help is a huge shock to your life, e.g. traveling the world.

Whatever you decide, best of luck to you.

>>18281223
I don't know. I fucking hate how my mind works. I have been seeing a therapist for the past five years and while I have improved in a lot aspects, I'm still depressed. Is it even possible to not be depressed? I don't mean to sound edgy but I don't think I've ever experienced true happiness in my life. Every time I think something may turn out well, life finds a way of shutting me down.

I've thought about admitting myself to a mental hospital but I'm not sure if that's right for me or not.

Make sure to donate your body to science and do it in a way that doesn't harm any of your organs. There's people who really want to live who could use your heart or your kidneys.

>>18281233
If you want to, even just a little bit, I would highly recommend it. Life can be great and wonderful, but if you're 100% certain you'll have no more good days, there's really no point in hanging around except for other people. You have to want to make your life better. Nobody can force you to do that. Worse comes to worse, you check out and nothing really changes.

>>18281185
Try getting a pet or go lift.Are you ugly/fat?

>>18281185

If you really don't give a fuck about life, I would reccomend applying for as much credit as possible from as many banks as possible, the key to getting credit cards easily is to "pretend" you're a student, they'll just throw credit cards at you.

Withdrawal all the money you can from these cards and travel the world.

This will destroy your credit so be absolutely sure you're willing to go through with it.

>>18281233
You really should check into a metal institution. I was in your place a few years ago, and I was feeling empty, sad. Life just seemed to have no meaning for me. I was going to a hero but I couldn't bear to put my family through that so I checked into the hospital and life feels much better now. Please anon, give it a shot, please.

>>18281185
Look, you're obviously not going to kill yourself (at least right now).

Might as well try to improve your life. Makes list of things that might make life better/worth living and do one of those things every single day.

>>18281185
How do you know you're not good at anything if you haven't tried everything?

You don't have the courage to kill yourself because you know deep down, that it is wrong and there is something out there waiting for you to find it.

Happiness, as silly as it sounds, is truly a life skill. Happiness is an emotion stemming from good such as someone complementing your eyes. Suicide or depression is stemming from bad such as being traeted like shit.
I know, I was there before.

Look no one can stop your current feelings other than you. The only advice I can give is forget the bad shit. In one ear, out the other.
The good shit, however little you feel there is, hold that. And from this moment forward, fuck everyone that is negative. Fuck them. Don't kill yourself. You don't even know what you are supposed accomplish yet. And the world won't know either.
Keep on keepin' OP.

>>18281194
You should feel lucky you have a job at all dude. I know a guy who has been unemployed for almost a year. Keeps getting turned down. I feel bad for him.

>>18281185
Dude, seriously get a really nice escort. Probably cost around $600/hr. And fuck the shit out of her. I guarantee you will feel like a million bucks after that. Not being sarcastic or trolling either. Seriously man. Get an escort.

>>18281408
I second this. Fuck the best hooker you can find