When I were 16 I were in a bad accident with all of my relatives.

Talk to your family and friends again, tell them you are afraid, ask them to call a doctor, because you will need a shrink to talk to.
If you continue to be afraid, you might develop agoraphobia, which will fuck you up for the rest of the life.

Hi i once crashed a car at highspeed on the motorway i went off the road and hit like 8 small trees at 100kmh. I survived with no serious injurys. After that i had to catch the train to work(no car). Anyways like 2 weeks later my boss tells me to go into the city to the docks and get a package. I take the work truck on the motorway in peak hour traffic everyones driving like jerks cutting in. And im having panic attacks and crying the whole time. I had to stick it out which sucked hard. I eventually bought a sports cars a year later toyota supra and would thrash that car on the motorway. Face your fears dude You will come right.

>>18278398
Agoraphobia? I might already be fucked.

Before witnessing this second accident I Rarely left my house because there are cars around every turn. I became extremely depressed and would only leave after some kind of mental numbing.

Tossed my bikes and skates
Quit school
Cut contact with any friend not within walking distance


I'm constantly thinking some vehicle will burst through the wall and get me unless I'm up 2 stories or more.

I'm ok with being a virgin mostly because I have yet to find a decent female driverskate because of how women see men without vehicles. I just don't talk to them or try anymore because all of it revolves around car

My apartment is expensive because I'm within the city. I only took this place because I can go anywhere without the need of a car.

I haven't even left my city yet anon.

That painful chest constricting fear I use to know has subsided now I just sort of semi black out and my heart rate jumps.

>>18278421
How the fuck dontou expect me to face anything when its people like you that cause the fear.

The fuck.

>>18278434
You have a surreal vision of world, friend.
You should talk to a psychiatrist.

>>18278494
OP might be going a little off the deep end but its not exactly surreal. Freak drivers are scary as hell and an actual danger to people. After what he's been through the fear is little more than irrational.

OP, if you ever want hope of being back on the road again you need to accept that things like this are out of your control. The only thing you can help is being the best driver you can. Do talk to a psychiatrist to work through the phobia. If you want something quick, try seeing if /o/ has anything to say about accidents.

>>18278551
This. It's fairly likely that you have some form of post traumatic stress disorder.

I know that term gets thrown around like it means nothing nowadays, but it's a very real condition that can have significant impact on your life even if you aren't consciously aware of it.