I just cant think of any good reasons not to kill myself. Please waste any rationalization on me because I just want it to stop. I dont want to feel like this.
Nemi is shit. You can do better
>>18236957
I have never wanted to die more. I want to die, I need to. I need to take this away from them and I need to stop fucking suffering.
>>18236955
Well, first things first. Why do you want to kill yourself? Grades? No gf? No/shitty job? Shit home life?
>>18236969
Be someone else than what you imagine yourself to be. The one you were before all the fuckery fucked you so bad you saw no way if unfucking yourself.
It is available to you every moment of your life, waiting. Just go back to that place. In baby steps. Counting your gains, patting yourself on the back over any effort to stay focused. Do not drift into thinking your have to do all the bad things any longer - but there are plenty of ways out, much more creative and fun than what you are suggesting.
>>18236955
Wait!
You need to take my virginity first!