I'm a crossdresser but I consider myself straight. I've

>>18222927
Do you feel uncomfortable on your body (like you meant to born a female)? Or you just like girl clothes?

>>18222954

I'm quite comfortable with my masculinity and I have no interest in identifying with the trans community. It's more of a fetish and brings me sexual gratification. Still, my female persona is becoming quite important to me as I spend lots of money and time on her. There is some worry that she might become stronger and more fulfilled and that might confuse me even more.

I want to be normal yet I can't run away from this lifestyle. I wish I could talk to someone like me.

>>18222927
Crossdressing is very tame fetish. I dont see a problem finding girl who will tolerate it. With a bit of luck, you may put up dresses together and hit the town together and see if you manage to fool somebody to think you are girl as well.

>>18222972
The persona sounds dangerous thou. Go try to specialist. Maybe you are on edge with split personality. Putting panties, bra and wig wo have superb fap is one thing, but building your second ego is dangerous.

>I want to be normal
We all wish to be normal anon. But nobody is normal in the long run.

>>>/specialist mental doctor/

>>18223046

>split personality

Eh, when I mean "persona" it's just a term us crossdressers give our feminine look to enhance the completeness of the transformation. It's the fantasy of a different personality but not so much of an actual different personality.

>we all wish to be normal

There are so many fetishes that I'd rather be into than this. I'd rather be a pedophile than a sissy crossdresser.

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>>18223075
>pedo
You dont even know how that bad is. Facing everyday threat of getting label of sexual deviant, getting behind bars even by searching for only type of porn that gets you going.

Just date girls and on 3rd date ask them what they think of cross dressing. Any girl with indeferent or better is ready to go anon.

Here have a crossdressed link. Does this also turn you on, or YOU have to be the one in clothes?

>>18223075
Crossdresser is way better than pedophile.

>>18222927

I'm just like you anon. I crossdress but realistically I'm not passable, and don't have any interest in transitioning. I've considered experimenting with men but I don't find any attractive, besides in the most like "of course Brad Pitt is handsome, but that doesn't mean I jerk off to him" kind of way.

>>18223075
I also hate the fetish. I wish in so many ways that it could be something I don't think about.

I've had girlfriends and such, so it's not a death knell, but I never, ever mentioned that I was even slightly into this. I'm very much a straight seeming dude otherwise. I haven't crossdressed in a while though - I put all of my stuff in a hard to reach place boxed up, and did nofap, which has helped a bit, but hasn't "fixed" anything.

>>18223104
Would you be happy with yourself if you told her and she supported you? Like that you incorporate your "girl side" into your sex life? Wouldnt that be your source of happiness?

>>18223093

Not OP and I'm not going to hijack his thread, but I'd never, ever feel "right" telling a girl I was a crossdresser or doing anything with it, because I'm generally a more dominant personality and dressing up as a woman would change that entire role and make the girl never see me the same. It would completely ruin our dynamic.

I'd be attracted to a passable trap and would consider it, but the fetish for me is being the one in the clothes.

>>18223111

Sorry, I just addressed it in >>18223117, but no, I wouldn't be satisfied that way. I can't imagine being anything more than humiliated and like "well now what" if I was sitting there in a dress in a sexual scenario with a girl.

>>18223093

>>18223117 this explains perfectly why I would never tell a girl that I had feelings for about my dark secret.

>>18223104

It's good to hear that I'm not alone. I'm happy for you that you've been able to maintain healthy relationships. Your post gave me some hope.

How far do you go with crossdressing? Or did, since you don't anymore. Just clothes? or makeup, wigs, etc.

Split personality my fucking ass. Having a LARP session where you pretend to be female and call it a persona is not MPD/DID. It's acting. Is George Clooney MPD with Danny Ocean in his head now?

>>18223121
>>18223130
I find your reasons to be afraid a bit ridicilous. You are afraid of being percieved as something not manly enough for a girl if you let her known your weaknesses. That sounds like insecurity to me.

Maybe I say it only because I am into sub/dom play, but you should reconsider your way of thinking. If my dom would tell me to put on makeup and some dress (even when i am not into it), I would do it regardless of consequences because that is part of having fetishes: to have some fun in life with partner you trust.

I say you should learn how to live with yourselves. As I see it, you are less manly for being afraid of sharing your secrets and weaknesses with surroundings.

>>18223130

I went pretty much full bore. Wigs, makeup, clothes, shoes. I've done some anal play but I only sometimes like it. I have roommates, so any time that I get to go all-out is rare, which means I normally skip makeup, which is annoying to apply and take off as is, since I'm not very good at it.

I tend to get all regretful after I cum, so any grand plans I have become not worth it like 20 minutes in. I remember I had a three day weekend to myself at home, bought a bunch of clothes/makeup/stuff, was going to spend the whole weekend "dressed," shaved up, spent the time to put on makeup & go all out, then came 20 minutes in, threw all of my shit into a pile like "what the fuck am I doing," showered everything off, and then spent the whole weekend at the bar.

Then I had to wait for months for my leg hair to grow back before I'd wear shorts anywhere.

I don't get it, really.

>>18223156
PROTIP: Nair is waaayyy easier than shaving if you can spring for it.

Brazilian or sugar waxing is god tier option but normies won't get it.

It is exciting BECAUSE you are attracted to women and happen to have feminine body.
I used to crossdress as a child and teen, now I don't, because I have a girlfriend whose body I can enjoy, I also acquired a masculine body and now my preferences are completely straight.
You are not attracted to crossdressing, trust me, you are attracted to women, its just you don't have a gf and substitute with your crossdressing.

>>18223162
t. expert behavioral psychologist

enjoy picking up crossdessing again at 40 when your girl dumps you for tyrone

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>>18223156

We are quite similar I think.

I spent the whole week preparing myself, buying clothes wigs and make-up. I thought about it 24/7 at work and could barely contain my excitement when I unboxed my lingerie and stockings.

Then I started dressing up and felt instant regret. Now I feel like a huge idiot who just spent $200 on lace and fishnet, but in the back of my mind I can't wait to do it again.


>>18223148

I agree it's insecurity. I have to grow and learn to deal with this part of me, and learn to love myself, cd'er and all.

Thanks for all your words.

>>18223162

It's true I've never had a GF. Here's to hoping that I end up like you.

>>18223148

I don't see why this is so hard to understand. It's not fear of how I'm being perceived, it's that the ways I find this sexually exciting are not inclusive of someone else. I know you have this feeling that everything is more fun to do with someone else, but it's just not compatible. You're a sub, so it's different having someone tell you what to do and stuff... that doesn't get me sexually excited.

Sometimes fetishes are just something inexplicable that gets you horny, and isn't really functional in the bedroom. I have a couple of other fetishes I wouldn't/couldn't find useful while having sex, but they still give me a hardon, so I have to admit to myself that they're there.

>>18222927
This is a fetish called auto-gynephilia.

It starts off by imagining yourself as the woman during sex. Then it progresses to crossdressing. Then it goes to full on tranny.

Escape now before the BLTQQ+ cult try to induct you as a member.