>Date Ex on and off for 3 years >treated me poorly before

Abusive relationships are difficult. He will treat you badly again, that is for certain. Realise this and end it once and for all

what's "treating you poorly"? explain to us, we don't know

>>18222143
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO

THIS NEVER ENDS WELL

NEVER

EVER

DON'T DO IT

Signed,
One Who's Been There
(Too Many Times)

>>18222159
Was very late to pick me up on my birthday, lied to avoid fights and then started petty ones. Whenever we would be apart it was impossible to reach him, he basically checked out of the relationship before it was over.

>>18222154
>>18222173

Well FUCK me Freddy. As much as I'm like "these internet strangers are totally right." I can't help but feel like I'll regret it for the rest of my life if I don't.

Why do I feel so unwilling to say no

>>18222183
sounds like a little bitch desu
stay away

>treated you badly before
>on and off relationship
>everyone around you hates him
>"he promised he was going to change this time"
4 of 4 for abusive relationship.
He doesn't love you. He isn't going to change. You'll go through this same process countless times until he finally kills you.
Seek professional help OP, you need it.

>tfw I am that abusive ex
>tfw examining my behavior with constant introspection and crying out to God to change me
>still feel guilty and condemned

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>>18222295
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>>18222143
I know how you feel OP, but I can't give you any advice other than to keep your distance. If he means well, he won't rush you along and will try to reconcile with your friends and family. He won't demand your trust or take offense to your apprehension.

>>18222143
>his friend saw me at a party where there were deaths later

Avoid those parties.

>>18222313
Listen to this anon, OP. Your ex is like a drug to you, so the toxic cycle will continue unless there's a noticeable and consistent difference in his behavior/treatment of you