>20 years old >Wish my brain stopped developing when I

>>18221584
Yep, devote your spare time to helping other people with no expectation of reward. Every moment you spend focusing on helping someone else is a moment you aren't trapped in your own head thinking about yourself. And while vidya or fapping gets you out of your head too, it leaves you with a feeling of wasted time and worthlessness, whereas when you spend the same amount of time being of service, you feel uplifted and useful, even though the part you played was small.


Nothing philosophical about it. Studies have found volunteering has an effect on anxiety and depression

>>18221620
Yet I've never been able to care about the lives of human beings outside of my family.

I can't be bothered when I hear of others that I've known my whole life dying.

I couldn't get upset at my grandmother's funeral because she was never close to me.

Only a close friend would bother me.

I don't see how helping a stranger will aid me.
I never feel anything when I'm forced to help other motorists.

It may help me think "I'm such a wonderful person!", but I'll tear that down in my brain.

>>18221620
I think I'll try it.
I've nothing better to do in this world.

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>>18221584
>I wish I could want things I see in front of me, but I can't, and I never will.Philosophy can't help me.It's all just shit and words.
>Does anyone know of a way to make life worth living while you burn through a vast majority of it by working?
So do you want helping or think it's a waste of time...? Me telling you a activity that I feel like distracts from existential questions doesn't differ in any way from me telling you just a way to look at these things.

I feel like I've seen a lot of threads recently where people say nothing will ever help them... Then what is the point of your post? You can't really ask for help and at the same time feel like anything can't help you. I hope it's just one person making them all...

As for your problem:
>I would be happy right now if I didn't think so much.
Learn to let shit go. Stop trying to control everything. Enjoy what you have instead of always wishing for what could be.

Life is short but even with million years you still would feel it's too short in the end. Think of it the same way you would if you had a chance to go for a vacation to any place you wanted: Even if you could be there even for a week you would still be happy to do it. In the same way try to enjoy the time you have instead of always hoping for more. You are also living and experiencing life even when you're working. You could enjoy your life there too. And if you don't it might be time to change workplace.

>>18221584
>I'll never get what I desire or if this works because of the rarity of the job market (animation)

Your brain isn't the problem, your shitty attitude is. If everyone thought like you there would be no animators. If you aren't happy, and that's what would make you happy start working on it.

If you don't ,you deserve what you get. Blame the world for your laziness, dude.

>>18221711
There's a fundamental issue with this though.
If I attain the job I want to work at, I'll get churned through a grinder.

They turn a dream into a hell due to industrial demands, and it pays poorly on top of this.

2D animation goes from a joy to a 14 hour day ordeal, and all of the work is getting outsourced to foreign countries.

I've no desire to become a 3D animator, and because of this, there's no future in animation for me.

Illustrators don't make much money unless they're the absolute best in their field. Otherwise, they'll wind up drawing porn just to live off of art.

Life is historically hard on people that want to draw. I'm starting to see no way out though.

I might just drop animation and start practicing illustration for 10 hours a day once more.

I'm currently a NEET. I can do it. I can get very far now that I've got a very good grasp on art.

I don't know how my parents will feel despite this. They want me to go to college and learn business administration to make them wealthy, but I think that'll be a true hell for me.

>>18221584
you're 20 and inherently still a dumbass. save your post and re read later in life.

either knock a girl up and get purpose or do what i do and embrace the bizarre cosmic journey with no specific destination.

get high, dont live entirely for sex and treat unhappy people, well.

>>18221584
Get yourself a sandbox game or something.
>me
>16
>friends play Dota csgo or lol
>hate games
>older friend doing architecture tells me about sketchup
>what the fuck is this
>some sort of simulator software
>learn how to use the basics
>get really into it
>buy balsa wood at hardware store and art and craft stores
>build shit in my spare time