Ending up in the military, because i'm too anxious to apply

you have low self esteem but are qualified to work a comfortable job in a field you like. see a therapist for like 4 weeks and work out instead of helping humanity build weapons. einstein regretted working on the bomb.

>>18176643
Try for the French foreign legion. You'll learn a new language and have an adventure.

If you are having doubts about the military now, run very far away from it. It will only get worse during the incredible amount of stress they will place you under. See a shrink and sort yourself out.

>>18176643
God damn it OP. I'm studying mathematics and I know exactly how you feel.

>I had excellent grades and I know my stuff, but I cannot see myself having a real job, taking important decision, being professional etc.

>>18177011
Thanks,
I know one of my problem is being too agreeable and so I can get talked into anything even if it is not in my best interest, I got a lot of support from friends and family when I talked about doing my enrollment. I guess they where only glad to see me finally having some kind of life plan. One of my close friend who is a doctor told me that she doesn't think it is a good idea for me to go in there, because of my anxiety. She says I'm better to slowly go from a low stress level job (like what I'm doing right now) to progressively more demanding jobs. But that going straight to military-grade stress level would be the end of me. That's pretty convincing.
At the same time, there are a lot of situation I put myself into where I thought never being able to overcome and yet at the end it turns out ok and I was simply worrying too much. In a way I wish that the military lifestyle will give me strength, discipline and courage, the kind of attributes I need to develop

>>18177175
Good to know I'm not alone.
I don't know about you but i think we are avoiding taking responsibilities in general. School and university is pretty easy because you know exactly what you are required to do, and you are immediately punished (bad grades) for not doing what you're supposed to do. When I left university to find a job in the real world, there are no simple procedure to find a job, and if you procrastinate or stay inside, nobody cares about you and you will be left behind. That's what I did.
If you are still studying, be prepared for the terrible loss of status you will experience when you go from 'student' to 'unemployed looking for a job'. I thought I was going to be happy to graduate and leave this behind, but it really destroyed my self esteem.

>>18177241
doesnt sound like you'd like the idea of obscene levels of responsibility, stress, pressure, and aiding a sprawling military industrial complex murder people... hm, your friend smart enough to be a doctor might be smart about you.