I’ve been dealing with extreme fluctuations in my energy level

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I’ve been dealing with extreme fluctuations in my energy level for almost year. I started having small, but noticeable (noticeable to me, I’m not sure if others noticed), fluctuations about a year and a half to two years ago.

I’ll try to describe what I feel the best I can.

High episodes
>Extreme hyperactivity
>Always caused by something, I never wake up feeling like this
>Anxiety or a strong sense of urgency
>Paranoia
>Lasts for hours until I come down
>More common/intense than low episodes

This usually plays out in two ways. I will either be super anxious and become completely consumed with what ever caused the anxiety or I’ll get a surge of energy and feel the need to do something. The first one is crippling, I cannot focus on anything else. The second one makes me very productive. I still have a small amount of anxiety, but it is manageable.

Low episodes
>Extreme sluggishness
>Usually not caused by anything, sometimes occurs the day after a high episode
>Not necessarily in a bad mood, just very tired

I’m not entirely sure about how long they last or the frequency. I don’t have any anxiety or paranoia so it isn’t as taxing as the high episodes.

If I’m not having an episode, I feel pretty normal.

I’m a very private person, I’m terrified to talk to anyone IRL about this. Fuck, I know you guys aren’t psychiatrists, but please tell me if something is wrong with me or not.