I think that being close with others disgusts me. Lately, my

>>18167437
Does it seem like genuine closeness or fake closeness?

The latter disgusts me, but if you have a problem with the former then you need to see a fucking therapist

>>18167442
The former, but it's not really disgust. It's more like awkwardness, I guess? I feel a massive disconnect between the identity I've formed of myself in my head and how others seem to perceive me.

A friend in uni recently told me that I'm pretty much all the emotional support she has and I just felt really, really uncomfortable.

It''s like a playing a team sport or driving a car, right? People around you have expectations from you. Like you shouldn't hit someone else from behind or play your game without doing really stupid. It's because you are not used to these situations and scared from being awkward. Over time you will see you can do whatever other people can do too and these feelings should fade away.

But i might totally misunderstood you. Still doesn't matter. Love yourself dude no matter what.

Google depersonalisation