I don't even know how to explain it, but my social skills, or desire to improve them, or something, basically deteriorated.
When I finished high school I had a lot of friends but never really went out much or partied
I had a terrible time in college, and by the time I graduated I was burning every bridge I could but could still function because I got a lucrative job right out of school
couple years out now and I am now interacting the bare minimum needed to not lose my job
today the greatest relief I felt is when I realized the door to my bank was automated so I didn't have to hold it open for the person approaching from the other side, in fact I will go around a building to the least used entrance in order to avoid having to do that
I have no desire to perform actions like that anymore, I stopped talking to anyone outside of the coworkers that I absolutely have to day to day
I am so fed up with the little song and dance of social interaction that I'm afraid I'm going to lose my job and shut myself in my room
is this something /adv/ can help with? How do I fix this?
I'm at least that bad and don't even have a good job. fuck it.
>>18166580
My central assumption is that I was able to graduate college and get a job and stay in it at least up until now is because at some point I was more willing to put a mask on for the day or that I actually had some level of social skill
TFW no gf.
Stop watching porno everyday all day
It's called being an introvert, as you may already know. Nothing wrong with that. I am a huge introvert and I don't even want to hang out with family. I get to be social here and other places on the net where I feel safe, no dirty looks from people, no psychological mind games, no draining, useless conversations and I can leave anytime I want. As for work, you're going to have to deal with it and if I were you I would work on finding a job where you can be alone with the least amount of contact with people. And try to take very small steps on being social in public so you can get more use to it.
>>18166597
I can't get a decent job with my major without getting a graduate degree and there was no way I could've made it through a couple more years of being in crowded rooms and doing group projects. Having the mask to put on IS social skill, the doing it without hating every second is the being normal part. I shouldn't bitch too much, as long as my body lasts my job will support me just fine and I've gotten used to (very few and very repetitive) interactions I have at work.
>>18166546
I'm a recovering hikikomori and similar problem, I know how it's like... would appreciate advice too
>>18166624
I was watching porno everyday all day since the sixth grade
really doubt it's that
>>18166628
so I wasn't an introvert but now I am an introvert? I seriously had a large circle of friends and acquaintances
initially my coworkers would invite me out to stuff but that very quickly stopped, it must be related
>>18166614
it's true I never have but at this point I dislike talking to women very much
luckily my workplace is male dominated but the occasional interaction with a cashier is still painful
>>18166628
This isn't introversion, this is a phobia or social anxiety.
See a therapist, OP. Seriously.
>>18166656
Ok mate, keep watching porn all day everyday, its been going swell for you
>>18166666
Quints confirm, do this OP.
>>18166666
I absolutely agree, it has gone far past introversion and has crossed into something more detrimental if you are explaining things how they really are. Seek professional help OP.
what could a professional possibly do to help me?
tell me to get a hobby?