When it was sophmore summer I started talking to this girl. We were in the same group chat on kik ( her cousin who was my friend made it). I knew who she was before hand, but didn't really care for her at all. In the coming weeks I started to develop feelings for her and would flirt with her in the group chat, and then started talking to her privately. I'm not sure if she did like me or not then, she responded positively to all the flirting and one time when I was offline she was asking about me and where I was. Anyways, I would've asked her out but it turned out she had a BF. So I let it go, and slowly stopped talking to her. Fast foward to the end of junior year ( I stopped talking to her by then, but still had feelings for her anyways.) And during this time she apparently started seeing a friend of a friend from a different HS, while still dating her BF . By senior year she broke up with that guy, and was going out with this friend of a friend. I slowly got to know him better and he was always nice and chill with me. But the thing is now he's dating the girl I've had feelings for since I was 15. I'm in the second semester in the JC at in my town now ( I couldn't get into a UC so I'm trying again)
Part 2: So now whenever I hang with friends he'll come to hang sometimes. I can't really hate or dislike him because he's always been cool to me. But it keeps tearing at me because she'll hang with us aswell, so I'll se them together sometimes and it makes me a little depressed inside. Will I ever get over her? I don't know why I can't get her out of my head. I would try stealing her from him, but I view that as immoral. ( which is why I didn't do that in the first place.) I'm also unsure if I should do that because he considers me a friend, and he's also pretty much a part of our "squad" so idk what the others would say/think about me of I did that. What do you guys think of this situation? I'm 18 btw.
Shamless self bump
Also do you guys think convertibles are gay? The car I'm saving up for is, prob still gonna get it because convertibles seem fun to drive.
Pls help me wiser people
Pls, I don't know who else to talk about this with. I certainly cannot tell my friends