I've killed and don't know how to get over it. Although

>>18145199
Nice dubs allackbar killer, but wouldn't it be better if you learned another language and stopped your career in the army? It's pretty meaningless to work for countries now days.
Unless you want easy money for what you already know to do, then keep it up and find an anime waifu to purify your mind.

>>18145199
I am afraid you will have to learn how to live with it for the rest of your life. You should think twice before joining that line of work. I am meak, i would never want to harm others human being.

>there will be always men willing to do
>what others can not

I've beheaded several pet cats before.

Once our pet cat became gravely ill. Possibly due to the fact that my wife accidentally punted her (She was running in the hallway at night) and then a day later i accidentally stepped on her full force after a long night of video games.

The little fella was so sick she was shitting blood. She also just had kittens but she was practically a kitten herself, so maybe thats what sickened her. Well anyways, I had to put her down and I could not think of a more noble way to put a creature down than a clean beheading with an axe.

My next beheading was her child. Not too long ago actually. He was attacked by dogs. They crushed his spine. He couldn't walk. And with the swing of my mighty axe, I sent hunter the cat to meet his mother in the afterlife. *Chop*

the next killing was an annoying stray that broke into home and snuck into the attic. I had to set up multiple traps just to catch the bastard. Once i caught him in a cage i began to carry him down from the attic. That's when he escaped his cage. Somehow is slipped between an opening in the box cage. He then went mad in my house. I chased him around every room. He knocked over my coffee machine. He scratched me. Bit me. Etc.

Fuck it. I went for the axe and came back in. The little shit was now resting on the kitchen table.

*Sneak up behind him*, heh. nothing personal kid.

And with 1 fell swoop his life had ended. Right before my very eyes. Dead on the table, His twitching body pressed against my cold steel. His head lay motionless on the floor. Gone like that.

I hate cats. And dogs

>>18145199

All you needed was praise, fool. I'm guessing it's the first one that is fucking with you.

Fucks with everyone, but it is what it is. Embrace it and move on.

>>18145199

Have you considered going to therapy/ciunselling yourself?

>>18145199

If you do see a therapist, there are forms that you can sign so that they don't disclose anything that's going on with you and what's said in the sessions.