Help me. I want to stay awake over night so I could either read

I have a very neurotic personality, and have no friends around at the time, and I really need something to help me with stress.

>>18138772
pot.

oryx and crake is a good novel
the rum diaries, good novel (please don't judge based on the movie)
if you like USSR stuff, darkness at midnight is solid af.

>>18138788
sorry, "darkness at noon"

>>18138788
Thanks for the reply.

I know Rum diaries, I have read some works by Hunter. S Thompson.
I will check out these two, as well, they seem like they are written around characters and their stories, and I need that right now, because I'm drunk, a little depressed, and need a pick-me-up.
Thanks again.

>>18138792
I see Manny reviewed it on goodreads. It seems like he read every book there.

>>18138824
yeah overall its kinda depressing but very good.
its sorta like if 1984 was written by a good author.

>>18138835
haha. I actually liked Animal Farm (back in high school). But I will try to find a pdf. of it, and read a chapter to see if I like it.

I have this problem, where I don't do anything with my life, and when I go to sleep I say to myself I will do something valuable tomorrow, but when I wake up I just sit in front of my computer and do nothing, I just end up playing my guitar or online chess.

>>18138859
>guitar or online chess.
that has value.
seriously.

>>18138874
Yeah, but I end up doing it all day, so it just becomes a boring routine.

>>18138913
I was very happy when I started playing guitar, that was four months ago, and I have played so much that I am actually very good at it, my friend that played a guitar for his whole life and has a band is jealous of my skills, but for me it's nothing, it gives me no satisfaction anymore, I just want to have carefree happiness for one day.

>>18138934
try meditation.

>>18138939
I tried it few years ago, with binaural beats, candles, and other things, but it didn't help. Maybe I should try it again. What do you recommend?

>>18138954
no, real meditation, lol.
"mindful mediation" is a real meditation practice. you don't need anything to meditate.
maybe thats what you did, doesn't tickle everyone fancy, but doesn't sound like it.

>>18138961
Thanks, I will definitely try this, I actually do it occasionally, but often I forget about it, and quickly go into automatic mode.