So here's the thing. I quite often get into a state in which I feel pessimistic and depressed and afterwards as soon as I get feeling better I say that I'm going to make changes in my life (social, health, studying etc.). I start to make some changes but quickly relapse back into the previous state and end up saying that I'm gonna make the same changes. It's an endless cycle. I'm currently just got out of the depressed state and I've gotten into the stage were I start planning on changing myself. However this whole process has happened so many times that I'm expecting to screw things up again and end up going through this entire process again.
The thing is this has happened so many times that I ended up losing trust in myself and ended up believing that I can not take control of my life and actually make any radical changes, and that I will be stuck in this whole cycle my entire life. How can I break out of this and actually make changes for once and for all?
Since you mentioned studying, I'm guessing you're in school? How old?
I think you should work towards a long-term goal. If you're in college, you're priority should be getting your diploma and finding a job. If you get pessimistic and depressed, does it make you want to drop out of school, or does it just make you want to procrastinate doing your laundry? If it's the little things, don't sweat it, it happens to a lot of people. If it's making you feel like you want to drop out of school, then ask yourself, what else would you do with your life? Maybe you should be looking for longer term goals, as in, what kind of house or family do you want, and will you be able to get those things without the diploma?
>>18121683
I'm 19 and will be doing A levels (pre university exams) in some months. I had already dropped out two years ago and started the two year pre-uni course again last year, and I don't at all consider discontinuing school. Mostly I end up procrastinating everything whether it's studying, exercise, diet or even just socialising, and when I realise my procrastination I end up going through the whole depressed stage again. Afterwards I'll spend a few days working on improving things and slowly start abandoning everything making me feel like shit again. I guess an expectation of failure is ingrained into my mind now.