>sunny day
>nothing to do
>will feel guilty if I say inside, like I'm wasting my youth
>feel guilty for driving about with nothing to do
>spent some time learning maths in my free time yesterday and it was fun but I feel guilty unless I work extremely hard but since I will work hard I may as well postpone it one more day, right?
I feel non-stop guilty no matter what I do. I'm missing out on something but I don't know what.
>main hobby for the past two years has been driving about, drinking coffee, browsing 4chan, feeling sad about life
>always drive through city centre
>sometimes went to library or cinema to feel less alone
>had zero social life for years
Society just feels so fradulent. As a male you are either Chad or you are seen as shit.
>driving around during a sunny day
>seeing all the qt from a nearby university
>knowing I never talked to anyone during university and they only go for Chads and are disgusted by everyone else
>find the idea of working hard in my 20s to get leftover women in my 30s a sick joke that is overoptimistic anyway
Life is suffering.
Hi. I am not a chad. In fact, I am the opposite of a Chad: I'm a manlet. I am also happily married to a wonderful woman.
You have very low self-esteem and seem to engage in a lot of negative self-talk. I would encourage you to seek a course of therapy to deal with your guilt and low self-worth. Everyone deserves to be happy, including you. Cognitive behavioral therapy is not too time-consuming, nor is it ridiculously expensive.
If you are not open to therapy, please consider meditation. A technique called "mindfulness" can be very helpful in situations like yours.
>>18112773
>As a male you are either Chad or you are seen as shit.
Yeah yeah, it's society's fault. Do you base what you think on what you see our what 4chan tells you? I think you should leave this place and meet people IRL. And I find it funny that you say non-Chads are worthless yet all you want is "qts", and talk about getting "leftover women" as a sick joke. Yeah no.
>>18112773
explore hobbies that aren't hard or expensive to get into but gives you the opportunity to progress. for me it was music production. its not something i am dedicating my career to or anything but its something that lets me express my creativity. maybe u could thoroughly study subcultures or learn a new language so you can be part of something