I need some college advise. I don't come to this board,

A wealthy family member is completely bankrolling my education, but if I keep fucking up these classes or pick a weak degree I wouldn't consider it very principled to keep leeching off of her. I don't even know if she'd consider it a sound familial investment, even though she has plenty of money to hand off.

Finally, I have a belligerent but well-meaning older brother that is my roommate. My perpetual troubles in school are driving him mad, as are his reactions to such driving me mad. He doesn't seem to trust me or have confidence in me at this point, and I can't really blame him. I've repeatedly lied about my status in school as I was failing (with intention and failure to resolve these problems at my own discretion), and have repeatedly been caught in my lies and confronted with them. He has had his own problems in his early college career, but now he is in the later part of it and is doing significantly better. He's naturally more aggressive and confrontational, though, and I feel like his criticisms are more destructive than constructive. Our lease ends in May, and he's looking for our next house to stay in. Our combined housing budget affords us some great houses to stay in, and apparently he can put up with me longer than I can put up with him. He doesn't know I'm still greatly considering moving out separately, but I feel like I'm taking more of a mental and emotional toll in my life by staying with him than I could be otherwise.

It's a conundrum for me to navigate, but perhaps a new perspective will come from my dumping this on you all.

Hey, i'm a chem e, nice to meet you.
sounds like you need some inspiration.
Why don't you watch some nottingham science videos?
Talk to your teachers to inspire you.