>long story short, I'm 21.
>bit of an alcoholic, get very drunk 2-4 times per week.
>smoke a bit as well. 1-4 ciggies per day
>my dad's dying of pancreatic cancer, we were always extremely close.
>feels shitty. Very. Plus, might be hereditary. >Oh noes.
>he wanted to kill himself before his life insurance policy expired
>wanted money at first, felt like a bastard, pretty sure I comforted him enough to talk him out of it. Trying to take the pressure off him
>will inherit a lot of responsibility: the house, my mom, my grandpa. Money to last a few years while in college.
>feels unreal.
>sink or swim. can't do both. gotta be a man for my dad and for my family
>FFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKK
>>18109361
>also, my side hurts slightly today.
>proably cancer
>have a headache
>probably cancer
>found some lint on my foot from my sock
>cancer
>>18109361
Thank god I'm 13
>>18109361
I've heard that when your dad dies you kinda absorb some of his energy and become more of a man. My dad isn't dead and there isn't much to absord either way, but google it. Lots of guys talk about how when their dad dies a new part of their psyche activates.
>>18109361
It's not particularly hereditary. Stop smoking and eat foods that prevent cancer and you'll be fine.
Pacreatic cancer kills 95 percent of people within 5 years. So don't let him fuck around and squander what he has left. Assume it's his last year and let him do some fun shit with you. Go see Rome or band some huge jug chicks in the Netherlands, ect.