What is the most embarrassing/darkest/deepest regret you have

>>18104121

im a bit of a pedophile (dont act on it) and was a prostitute. not sure which im more ashamed of.

i imagine the prostitution as i at least dont mind being a pedophile even if i hide it.

some close friends know im a pedo bu ti havent shared that i used to hook.

I made up serious lies about my health and family years ago, Very serious shit that probably would have gotten me in some serious trouble but I was lucky it didn't. I sought out help in my early 20's and have been improving my life every year since then so much but damn do I regret it. Fucking loathe my past attention seeking, It ain't fucking cute. God damn.

I almost made your mistake. I was raped by a woman. I wanted to tell my parents about it, but we ended up just getting into a discussion about female rapists and my parents both said they didn't believe it's really rape when a woman does it.

Decided to take it to my grave. My own parents would tell me I'm just bullshitting and being hurt and traumatized by something stupid that doesn't count or matter. Can't really expect anyone else to feel any different if my own parents wouldn't back me.

>>18104121
If it helps op, recently came out to my friends as a sexual abuse victim when I was a child. My medication and lack of motivation is leading me to fail school.

>>18104161
This is me now. I think I've stopped but I know at any minute I can just fake another suicide attempt for attention. That's just how I am.

>>18104121
Well its a lesson i wish for your sake you learned when you were a teen. Dont trust teenagers. Theyre all about stories and gossip...

In the adult world its easier to tell whos gonna keep your secret, and its not gonna fly overboard into crazy rumours that are blown way out of proportion.

Sorry for what happened to you

I made up a boyfriend in high school because I was so lonely and out of place with all my friends who had boyfriends nonstop since they were 12.

I still talk about him, and make up new stories for him to this day though. Not even to keep up the lie. Just because my boyfriend who lives in canada actually does comfort me, in the most cringy stupid fucked up way.
The lie eventually became kind of real in my head. I know he isn't real. But I send emails to myself from him, and when I show them off, he feels real to me. It makes me feel like someone loves me. Though I know nobody ever will.

I really hope nobody ever finds out though. I don't think I can come back from that. Everyone will finally understand how absolutely insane and pathetic I am.

>>18104121
I molested the girl that I was sweet on. Immediately regretted it, felt super shitty forever.

She pretended to get over it, we dated, committed, and got married for five years, but now she's leaving me because apparently she was only pretending to be over the whole indecent touching thing and it's actually been ruining our relationship this whole time, and then she decided to fuck one of my best friends in secret for a few months.

>>18104168
I know that feel my friend and believe me it can get better if you chose to do so. You gotta make yourself aware of your behaviour and when you can feel it rising up. Distract yourself, Busy yourself with other things and remove yourself away from the person you crave attention from. But seriously? Go get help, Please don't stay stuck in that cycle like I did for 9 years, I lost everyone I ever loved and destroyed all of my self respect and esteem and any respect anyone ever had for me.

>>18104177
Cucky, she just used that incident as an excuse to cheat on you.

>>18104194
The way I read that was she fucked the friend after breaking up with him

>>18104194
Hey, it's only cuckoldry if I don't savagely butcher him, right?

>>18104199
Nope, before. Sorry about the ambiguity. It has only been five days since the bomb dropped. I haven't been able to find him yet; he's hiding out at a co-worker's relative's house, apparently.

>>18104199
Meaning she planned on using that old incident as her "way out"

I bet anything she was already emotionally cheating on him with his friend already up to that point.

>>18104215
Probably so. The real question is how to best skin a dude so he's still alive throughout

>>18104208
Ah.
Disregard that I suck cocks then

>>18104216
Watch martyrs lol
But seriously, Don't harm him and make sure you get all the money from the divorce, She married you under false pretenses by pretending to be "okay" with it. She probably was desu, But she's a cheating whore and she thinks this is her out.

mine would be taking the emergency lane when i found out my mother inlaw was killed in a head-on collision. i was stuck in traffic and had to get across the city. well i got pulled over by some sheriff and the dick wrote me a 500 dollar ticket and made me late as fuck getting to my girl. I look back at it now and should of kept fucking going and just ran from the cop.

>>18104216
Try some ISIS videos maybe?

>>18104121

In love with one guy, fucking another.

I crossdressed for a friend I loved deeply... He betrayed my trust and now I feel like he can use that against me...

>>18104124
So I assume you're a woman?
Can you guess how many other women are pedos?

>>18104121
Not being able to forgive my ex for cheating. I still love him and miss him after 7 years. Hes feels the same. We're both lost and yet moved on but it's a hole in my heart. My pride fucks me