I am having a conflict of mind, but I am afraid of throwing up

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I am having a conflict of mind, but I am afraid of throwing up some incomprehensible bullshit. So I am going to try my best to keep this simple.

I am having trouble with probably 20% of people I know currently. But generally I am very focused on trying to be accepting. I just cannot get beyond people that are addicted to gossip and treating other people like shit. Unlike most others that just put up with it, I don't know why. Some just appear spineless but I am sure people have their reasons. Continuation of a certain existence perhaps.

The thing I am having problems with is letting to of that 20%. It's not that I care for these people, I think they are shallow manipulative. I just don't really know how to let go, and I also think they might be playing that fact because it's not really a secret.

It's as if I give them the knife to back stab me, knowing full well that's what they will use it for.

But then again I don't believe in living in a world where people like this cause everyone to be more cautious with who they deal with.

I guess I am just idealistic thinking that people should be beyond pathetically trying to have an impact on each other and getting off on the fact.