I'm completely dazed you guys. I feel lost in the stream

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I'm completely dazed you guys. I feel lost in the stream of life.

I'm a 22 years old male who basically failed everything. I used to be anorexic in highschool, evidently I didn't focus on work and I was just an awkward mess all along. I still don't know what to do, having failed all the prospects I had (missed both tries for med studies).

I'm currently studying to be a nurse, a job in a field I have absolutely no will to work in anymore. It's a dead end occupation with no prospects, exceptionally so in France, I mainly picked that field out of desperation and fear of not having something to fall back on. But I keep on losing my time since I'm 18.

A thread came up some time ago where a guy on /pol/ claimed that he finished his studies and started working in an engineer firm at 30, where his coworkers were 5 years younger than him and he hated it.

I had a sort of depression after failing in the first field I initially picked, which lasted long enough to fuck me up: lost contact with everyone, got isolated even more. I lost a large amount of time and, consequently, opportunities; now that I have enough courage to get up and do something, I feel like it's already too late and so far behind everyone else because I'd start anew, at the ripe age of 22.

How do I deal with this? It's not bothering me as much as I'd like it to, I never felt more peaceful since I left all my former accointances. But I want now more than ever to get a good career and embrace life. It just feels like I'm denied all of this.