I'm feeling so alone and inadequate. What should I do? I

>>18081829

if you have any irl friends go to them and ask them to hold you. its gay af but it feels nice, arguably nicer than a girl in these times because they are stronger.

i know it sounds gay and our culture says just sounding gay is bad but honestly my dad had a stroke last week and is paralyzed and i was just freaking out over it and asked a friend to hold me, and i felt amazing, ive been amazing ever since.

>>18081829
I also feel terribly inadequate. I'm slipping in my classes and am a terrible programmer. It especially sucks because engineering is such a competitive, try-hard major that it's full of people who I have to watch easily finish assignments again and again.

When was the last time you cried? Like really fucking cried hard. Making yourself cry is actually a good way to relieve feelings of self-hate and pent-up pain.

I'll be here for you though if you wanna talk.