>Be in a friends with benefits situation but more intimate

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>Be in a friends with benefits situation but more intimate than usual for 7 months
>Girl is 9 years older, says the whole time that this makes her uncomfortable
>It becomes long distance for reasons beyond our control
>She begs me to fly out to see her and I went, even though I couldn't really afford it
>She spends christmas with me and my family (this was also massive blow to her bank balance), the day before she leaves I tell her that I think we should try living together when we both live in the same city again
>She breaks down crying because "Everything is against us working out", because of the age difference and the distance
>A month later I tell her that I should be able to move back and that I still felt the same way, she tells me that she'll never want anything serious with me because of the age
>Finally I move back some 6 months later, not because of her
>We start hanging out 3 months after that, flirting like crazy and doing coupley things
>She starts coming to my house for meals/ films once a week, we were occasionally touching each other and flirting like crazy as usual
>I try to subtley make a move, she says "No way" and starts saying that she never had feelings for me and that she didn't enjoy sex with me
>We bump into each other a few times, then last night she texted me at 3am asking why I was being weird towards her and I told her it was because she hurt me
>We end up chatting for 2 hours, she tells me that she feels so relaxed around me and that I'm always making her laugh, and that she didnt mean the things she said the last time she was at my house
>Says she wants to meet in the week to talk

How do I proceed? If she doesn't want a relationship I'm fine with that, how should I go about going back to being friends with benefits/ intimate again? After all, I'm pretty busy and would be happy with just the sex if it was on offer.