I'm an alcoholic. I'm in my late twenties and I have

Smoke weed instead

I smoke a shit ton of weed but it does not stop me from drinking. If anything it would knock me out before I could get into trouble. I can be stoned like fuck though and I'll eat a beer in a minute. Then another. And another. All day until I pass out.

Not even memeing bro, join an organization like AA. What you need is constant reinforcement as to why you should not drink. It'll ruin your life. You're clearly not happy. You need to change. Find others who want you to. Then you will want to.

Then an attack occurs like this. I wake up just as I'm falling asleep, or wake up out of my coma, and literally feel like HOLY SHIT TODAY IS THE DAY!?

Other days withdrawl creeps in and I could be smoking a cigarette or talking to my brother and suddenly I feel it and I know I'm going to have a rough few hours.

I never admitted myself to a hospital because I feel ashamed. I'd rather die on my own than admit I was foolish.

Another effect from all the beer drinking is my diet is atrocious, I can't eat. I know I'm suffering extremely dangerous blood sugar levels.

>>18075754

Sounds like you need rehab or a doctor. I can't recommend AA as it didn't work for me.

You need something to deal with the chemical dependence for sure, and be in a place where people will keep you away from the sauce.

Hope it works out anon, I can commiserate with you. Drinking in the middle of work right now.

I used to drink at work, but I told myself I have to feel OK physically for work, and that means I'm drinking water. I still end up drinking most every night after work... I'd say right now work is saving my life, but that's mot entirely true because the physical labor has spawned attacks