I'm have a horrifying sense of dread when I cast my mind in to the future, it's as if my modest goals are unattainable, I then put an enormous amount of pressure on myself to make progress which as a result makes me nervous and anxious and lack focus. It then cycles around making me incredibly depressed.
What kind of expierence is seeing a counselor, are they helpful?
I can't imagine myself ever succeeding. I hate it so much, but the truth is I fuck up everything I do. Almost nothing goes right for me and I can only imagine death or worse in the next year or two.
>>18070630
Anon, I know how you feel. Wanting to better yourself and not yielding a tad of satisfaction is hauntin. I quit smoking, stopped fappin, go to the gym, and I still feel like absolute shit about myself. If I could focus and make progress I'd probably be ok, however in my mind "progress" is one big abstraction. Rejection isn't progress in my eyes, niether is reading a journal...sure I've gained a broader perpective on things but where the fuck am I going to use it if I'm still a wageslave/college loner
>>18070624
I feel you OP ...
What I would recommend is probably just taking a couple of days as a break and then setting a time table that you shall follow from this day onward strictly ...