I don't know if I'm depressed or not. I don't think I am, I think my changeable moods are self-inflicted. Maybe I've been so isolated for so long I don't know what normality is?
Nothing interests me much. I hate spending all my time on 4chan but I can think of literally nothing else to do. I have phases where I might get into reading or something but it only lasts a week and then I get bored and don't finish the book because my emotional state has changed from when I started it.
I cry quite a lot, which is strange for a man in his 30s. I see no future for myself but I believe this is undeniable, objective fact and not the result of chemical imbalance etc. I feel better after meditating sometimes. Other times it can trigger feelings of hopelessness.
I've never had meds, I think they are evil Jew pills like everyone says. But maybe I am long term walking depressed or otherwise mentally ill and don't even know it. I do not trust doctors, they are mostly, in my experience, just prescribers with no compassion or people skills
tl;dr - how the fuck do I know if I'm mentally ill or not? And is medication the devil?
>>18063420
>how the fuck do I know if I'm mentally ill or not?
Go to a doctor. Even if you don't trust them, they are the ones with the knowledge. Maybe try getting a couple of opinions before letting someone medicate you, but please don't believe internet quacks. Go to a professional.
>>18063420
Dude - you are fucking depressed. Get over your mistrust of doctors or feel this way forever. Your choice, dumbass.
As for "Jew pills", never heard it put that way. You have quite an issue there. Again, they can help comma you anti-Semitic idiot. Or you can be miserable like you are now.