I posted about this roughly a week ago and I got some great responses but details in the situation have changed/ been revealed to me.
I am a special needs therapist for kids with autism. I've been doing it for a little over two years and I'm experiencing some pretty rough burnout. About two weeks ago I officially started with a new client, and in short, I feel very out of my element. I have been doing this for a little while but only part time so I don't have as much experience as it seems.
But anyway, i do not believe I am a good fit for this client at all. I wanted to leave but I was worried that doing so would effectively ruin any chances I had at using my collegues and bosses as references in the future when I seek a full time job.
Last time some anons gave me some good responses, but I've brought my concerns to my boss and they told me I wouldn't have to leave the company to leave the client before the 6 months minimum. Basically they said they'd much rather have me leave now if I don't feel good about it than have me, and likely as a result my client, have a shitty experience.
So knowing that the consequences aren't that severe, what should I do? I do genuinely feel id be a better fit somewhere else but I still feel incredibly guilty for even considering this.
Should I leave? And if so, how do I get over the guilt?
>>18050320
never feel guilty for protecting your career.
guilt?
>>18050476
Well its sort of hard to explain why i would feel guilty.
I know that its not really my problem, its the parents problem, but at the same time I was asked to help and I cant help but feel like im letting them down.
>>18050469
I guess its not so much protecting my career and more so that i just dont want people to think im lazy.
This kid is a difficult one for sure but oddly enough ive dealt with more challenging behavior before and I handled it just fine, i just dont think im a good fit. I feel like that is a justifiable reason but I just cant shake that people are going to think im lazy.
>>18050320
Maybe instead of seeing him as a client you should see him as a person, just like you. Maybe God just put you there to make the client suffer and the client hates you and your whole company for it
>>18050320
You're hired to - oh, let's say drive a cab. You're good at it but one day they give you a bus to drive. You really can't handle it and ask to be reassigned back to cabs. They agree that it wouldn't be a good idea to stay with a bus when you might have an accident, and offer to put you back on cabs, with no hard feelings.
Would you feel guilty?
>>18051507
That's a really great way to think about it I guess