>start smoking weed because sadness
>years of gradually increasing smoke
>toll it takes+extreme stress from circumstances (long story)
>dissociation and memory loss, can't even remember things from my childhood
>half a year cold turkey
>can feel and remember who I was
>feel sad for what I've become
Now I want to forget again. What ends this cycle?
Make a list of goals, short term and long term broken into steps you can take over each day or week. Then become someone you can look back on and smile about
>>18039597
Weed will probably help you forget.
Dude what about going to church or something instead. Im pretty shy but on occasion I listen to some of the churches that are on tv. makes me feel better sometimes. some of the sadness maybe that you feel could be from deeds done that don't quite feel good. If you look at the 10 commandments we shouldn't be doing things like killing animals or bugs we need to be kind to each other and do good.
Also if you can get sober I find that helps a lot.
>>18039689
also we shouldn't be hurting each other. We need to be compassionate.