Just had a family dinner last night and everyone was acting so

>>18037927
>Can anyone offer some insight into what is going on?
How would you feel if someone just disappeared out of nowhere, later came back, and expected you to act like nothing had happened?

>I feel like my brain is rewiring itself and people don't want to look at their roots. They just want things to keep you in a box and have you the same
No, YOU want them to treat you the same. You yourself have said that you've changed, and as a result, so has their behaviour towards you.

>>18037947
Wow I literally don't know anyone else like me

...yeah that's right, I became a recluse and I shut everyone out.

I thought the best way of dealing with my problems was to isolate myself and not put the burden on other people.

I feel a lot better nowadays and I don't walk around with disdain like I used to.

People can really fuck up another person if they aren't careful.

Everything I've ever done has been in reaction to something or someone. I really feel like I have no control over my life.

Any tips on calling your own shots in life?

Much appreciated

>>18038014
You may need professional counseling.

Here's an idea of where to start - find a friend or volunteer of sorts to help you with this exercise.

You both mark a line that you designate as your boundary. They'll cross into it and get in your face/against you until you "feel uncomfortable"/say stop.

>>18037927

>I've been pretty down these last few years
>last few years
>feeling down
>for YEARS at a time

think we found your problem.

>become a hermit
>get mad at everyone else for not going out of their way to take care of me
>FOR A FEW YEARS

uh huh.