>18 years old, never had proper sex (bjs from ex gf)
>went out with some other girls, never really liked anyone of them (there was always something I couldn't stand), so I never felt comfortable with committing to them and ended up leaving them
>if they weren't searching for committment and only wanted to have sex, I didn't want to be a part of it because it felt wrong to lose my virginity like that (always because of that something I couldn't stand, I suppose)
Is it nuts to wait until I fall in love at this young age? Should I just have fun, like I would have if I had lost my virginity, even if it doesn't feel right (I think it may be just some kind of perfectionism)?
You're 18. Your life experience is so limited in its current state that you should not be giving a fuck about this. Come back when you're 25+.
But what if I can't help doing it?
>>17969598
You're not doing enough other shit if that's the case. Get some hobbies that require bigger time commitments and more thinking than whatever your current hobbies are.
Alternatively you can focus on just meeting people in general. Use Meetup or school clubs. Being social is a good distraction and you might even meet some eligible ladies.
Shut the fuck up
>>17969550
kys
U silly vergin
>>17969550
Just live life as it comes and don't worry about other people. Be a perfectionist when it comes to not worrying about your ego and other trivial things..