I have been through a lot of traumatising emotional and sexual

>>17957726
You might need to start learning to live with it, you've developed a disconnect with the world as a cushion, if something bad happens it doesn't feel very real so it won't hurt as much (like your favorite TV show character dying vs an actual person you care about dying). That's the mechanism behind it, once you understand that it should make coping easier, I've found that taking 5 minutes out your day or any moment you can to just relax,sit still, close your eyed and really focus on listening to the world around you, it helps quite a bit (for me at least)

t. I've got PTSD from growing up in a warzone in Africa and experience a similar feeling on a daily basis, almost as if I'm watching a movie instead of experiencing real life.

Open the doors of your heart

You are not disconnected from the universe

you perceive you are because you selfishly believe you are separate from everything.

Pro-tip: you're not.

>>17957827
I agree and appreciate the sentiment, but you've gotta explain it further to the OP in a way that makes sense, at face value what you typed looks like mysticism and bullshit (mind you I 100%) agree with what you said, but if I hadn't studied things like that on my own your post would seem useless to a lot of people here

>>17957837

I mean without mysticism, the fact that we originated as one piece of matter (Big Bang) in one point it time, shows that we were once as one.

Myticisim aside. Emotional reactivity is not the key to happiness. When you are pulled by happy emotions intensely, you are likely to be pulled by sad emotions equally. Thus reacting to emotions is not enough for deep happiness.

I don't what it is yet but I know emotions are barely scratching the surface on how we experience the universe.

>>17957854
tru tru I like the cut of your jib anon

>>17957854
Good emotions and atmospheric feelings is all that's needed