What was the "rock bottom" of your life and how

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>>17955042
I've lived with this very abusive old woman for a year due to me not having everything in working order. I was desperate, so I felt there were no other options. I took literal punches, bites, slaps, reminders that I was worthless scum, took every single ounce of blame, and was doing almost everything for her without a thanks.

Now I disowned her completely, and have a new house far the fuck away from her. It's been 4 years since we last spoke. I hope she's dead.

>>17955076
XD

>>17955042
I'm in it right now. Just sitting here, existing. I'm not living. I don't have an urge to cease existing, but I do want to be alive again. I want to be reminded that I am alive by feeling every emotion there is and being grounded in the present moment. I've kept myself inside of myself for too long that I disxonnected from the world and ironically, my own self.

>>17955096
*disconnected
If my ramble is a tad confusing, I'm basically drowning in a depression that's intense to the point I don't even feel it or anything anymore.

I'm pretty young so I'll no doubt experience other hardships later on, but so far I think was dealing with depression to the point where I was suicidal. Therapy and having the support of loved ones is what helped me through that.

I was about 19 or 20 or 21
I don't remember which year

I decided to move across the country to do some stupid uni bio degree
I was in the middle of a class for org chem and I started crying.
I cried all that class and then I went home to sleep
I didn't go to any other class again

I abandoned my studies and my classes.

Then I leeched off my parents' money for about a year. Staying entirely inside and not doing anything.
This was about the 2000s so I watched Korean fucking Starcraft at 4 fuckin AM for a while

That was my lowest point
I got over it
I left all of my childhood possessions there.

I was addicted to crystal meth for about three years. Near the end of the third year, I was hit by a car. I was uninjured, but the driver feared I would sue. I said I wouldn't, but he didn't believe me.

Fast forward two days: I'd been locked in his basement, eating dog food and drinking murky tap water. It seemed my luck had truly run out, but I heard a sound:

"Get the fuck out of here, kid. The plumber's coming down and he can't see your captive-ass."

I was free. I had nothing, but I was free.

>>17955156
wtf

>>17955156
Wow I wish mine was that dramatic, instead of just pathetic.

age 19 addicted to fetish porn to the degree where I can barely function. One day I have an episode of super-duper depression, I remember laying on the couch in my dingy basement apartment in the middle of winter while my psyche was treating itself apart. Never felt more anguished and self-loathing than at that moment, it was like I had stepped out if find into an impenetrable tomb of torment. Felt strong urges to grab the box cutter from across the room and slice myself.

Thankfully my friend reminded me to pick up my shit from his place. So then I somehow bussed across town. Still in a bad mentality, I forgot all social skills; snuck into his building without buzzing and then went and got my stuff like a ninja basically, in and out real quick. needless to buddy was creeped out, or so he said bitching over the phone the day after.

>>17955275
*stepped out of time

Im still in it

most likely will an hero soon

>>17955153
Hows everything now anon?

Me being drunk and high almost all the time, did self harm on a day basis to feel real and cut contact with friends.

Watching my mother cry as she found out I was butchering my flesh really did kick me hard in the head. I worked toward stopping my rotten habits and now things have gone uphill since.

>>17955042
RAAAAGUU!

I lived in place far away from my family and most friends, alone, It was in my 4th year studying an engineer career that I didn't liked and I was still in the first year, I left collage and broke with my girlfiend after 5 years of being together (Though it was gonna be the love of my life), my apartment was a mess and I didn't had any cash, couldn't sleep at night and couldn't eat, I got really thin, started smoking again after three years.

Talked it out with family, now I'm studying what I like, made new friends, I've 5 different girls to fuck regularly, 1 of which wants something more stable with me and I'm looking forward to it.
I'm cleaner than before and I work out, quited playing vidya thanks to a really active social life.

I lost my virginity with my ex-gf, and since I left her 4 months ago I already was with 8 more girls.
Two days ago I fucked a girl, yesterday a girl that was menstruating gave me a bj and today I'm gonna meet another one.

The only advice I can give you is that even if you think your life's a mess, something better will come if you look for it, don't let yourself stay in a hole, try a fresh start, get out of your home, meet people, be friendly.

>>17955042
Got abducted by my abusive dad when i was 9 from my adoptive mother basically forcing me to leave the u.s to go to a 3rd world muslim shit country
Its been 9 years now and i lost hope in life , spending my days browsing 4chan and debating weither i should kill myself or wait a couple years and see how it goes.
Dealing with depression adhd and anxiety ever since
Honestly i can't see myself living beyond 23

>>17955042

2016, grandfather and dog died, asshole management was trying to force people to quit by deliberately making the job stressful as hell (and even making the work unsafe, they got away with it, plenty of people quit and they were not held accountable) so I was forced to reduce my hours. Struggling to find another job - worried it'll be as bad or worse than what I already have.

Basically, this past year I've been shit on so much I've struggled to cope.

How I got out of it?
Working less, cutting my spending so I don't eat into savings, making more time for myself.
Also, got a new dog.