Here I am, asking once again because I didn’t had the time

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Here I am, asking once again because I didn’t had the time to explain everything and because I haven’t got any advice for what I actually asked.
I’m really tired of looking at girls, knowing I’m not good enough, I’ve never been and won’t ever be. I’m tired of being called short. Well maybe that’s short I just saw one of crushes with a 2m tall guy. Nothing I try works, confidence, taking care of my looks, nothing works. I’ve focused on myself and only me for the last 4 years, it didn’t help at all, I never got approached by anyone, I neither really tried to get someone, I did weak attempts which were doom to fall, I knew that but I acted as if I did not know that. I’ve tried being funny, smart, you name it, I just can’t be what women want ever. I got Asperger’s, diagnosed by a professional, I can’t ever tell anything then I end up annoying people that I thought wanted to befriend me.
All I want is to stop wanting a gf in my life, I don’t want to have a sex drive anymore, I want to walk through my uni without focusing too much in the music in my headphones to evade looking at girls. I want to be happy as a complete loner and as a loser, because at 21 years old I’ve only held hands with a girl that thought I was rich, which I’m not.
I don’t want advice on how to get girls, to improve my looks, myself, I do all I can already but it’s never enough for anyone.
I want advice in being happy as i already am. Thanks.