Here are a sample of some of my many Neuroses. Please can someone

bumping out of self obsessed desperation

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please answer as briefly as you can to the following
1. has all of these that you described started 3 years ago when you split with that gf, or has that started in another particular point you can think of?
2. do you have any problem communicating with people, behaving in society, and/or do you exhibit repetitive and stereotypical behaviors?
3. last time you did a medical checkup, did anything strange come up?
4. are you abnormally active for most of the day, nearly every day, or have you been for at least 4 consecutive days, a lot of times in the last 2 years? examples include, but are not limited to, inflated self esteem, decreased need for sleep, being more talkative than usual or feeling pressure to keep talking, being easily distracted, and excessive involvement in activities that have a high potential for painful (physically or emotionally) consequences.
4b. do you really hate yourself and think you're pathetic, at least for most of the day nearly everyday? if no return to question 4.
5. does your mood/attitude shift greatly at times? seriously, like going from depression (I don't wanna get up from the couch I don't wanna do anything I suck I am worthless) to hyperactivity (see question 4). it would be best if you could ask this to somebody else
6. would you say you're depressed?
7. are you deceptive and/or exploitative, and if so are you deceptive for personal gain or pleasure?
8. are you irritable and aggressive? physical fights aggressive, not just discussions here and there
9. do you have a high disregard for the safety of yourself and others?
10. have you ever had a concrete plan for committing suicide, or have you tried committing suicide in the past?
11. have you gone to see a doctor about this stuff you wrote here on an anonymous mongolian flipbook teleconference?

if you have any other statement or idea that this questions have made you thought of but have overlooked, please do write them.
you're most likely not narcissistic.

I recognize myself in those patterns, albeit in a more controlled way. Especially talking myself in grand tones and that ambivalent relation with death. I too grew with the fear of nuclear obliteration, sometimes wishing for it to be outside hand that ends my inability to become the person I really want to be and sometimes lamenting that so many wonderful things could end and never be back in just a moment of madness.

I'm a highly charismatic person that always manages to lead everybody in believing in my next big project, only to let them down because of my laziness, apathy and failure to commit long term efforts and dedication.

I'm finally coming to terms with the idea that I will never be a celebrated name in history and that I should milk my prime years in just unleashing myself and enjoying the casual, hedonistic pleasures that are available to me. Live the present off mortgaging my future, and not worrying a single bit about my future self having to pick the tab.

>>17935883

get some professional counseling

we cannot deal with that overload

>>17936251
>I recognize myself in those patterns, albeit in a more controlled way.
are you honestly this dense?
I didn't divide all these questions for you to answer "yes more or less to the whole of them", if you want my help do as I say and answer my questions properly

>>17936296
Sorry, but >>17936251 was other anon replying to OP.

>>17936381
ah
sorry then, I got a bit ahead of myself