I feel no purpose in life.
I've come to a point where I'm just going through the motions, so to say.
I recently finished university with a bachelor's. Now I'm in a full time job making a decent salary. I've come out of a pretty bad relationship, but I've been in worse. Except, none of it phased me -- it was nothing new. It's almost as if I just expected it to happen.
Anyway, I've started to dabble in drugs to see what the culture/lifestyle was like. And even then I don't feel any really tug toward it. Neither did I feel this with alcohol.
I can't find a lifestyle I want/like that I want to have for the rest of my life.
To top things off, I don't really fit in with any groups of people -- you know, groups who hang out and do specific hobbies. Even in that case, I just don't feel I belong anywhere, really.
I'm not depressed per se, but I just don't feel like committing to anything in life -- I'm apathetic about most things, but I'll try it out just to experience it.
I mean, my next thing I want to do, just out of my boredom is join the military until I hit my 30s (21 right now). Then, may be I'll travel the world.
But I fear nothing will stop this constant feeling that I will never have anything in life that I truly enjoy or will captivate me.
I don't really know how to explain this /adv/
>>17928535
I want to explain myself a bit further. I've tried a lot of hobbies, hiking, eating out for the sake of trying new things, reading, coding, learning a language, working out, etc. And nothing just felt right, and neither did the people that did it. Nothing against it, I just didn't feel like it was me or that I belonged there. If that makes sense. It's not that I didn't try things out because I'm afraid of it or afraid of trying new things -- it's I didn't feel any different or experienced emotions because of it.
I'm just trying to live a life that I can enjoy /adv/, but I don't know why nothing is working
>>17928535
Bump. I guess what I'm asking is how to get rid of this feeling that I don't fit in anywhere while also trying to be happy in life
>>17928535
You are just suffering from the "What Now?" syndrome. You spent years devoting your energies toward specific goals - getting a degree, getting a job, having a girlfriend. You've done all those things and suddenly find yourself goal-less. All that creative and disciplined energy, and nowhere to put it.
The answer is obvious but not simple. Find new goals. The not-simple part is figuring out where you are in life (not a bad place, as you describe it), where you want to go next (this might mean job advancement, a new romance, or something sideways, like exploring a hobby or interest), and how to start the process of getting to the goals.
And then, in two years, or five or ten, you'll do it again. Life is a journey of setting short-to-medium range goals, reaching them, and then setting new ones.
>>17928597
I do have goals. I tend to think you're right to extent, however. The thing is, all of it just seems like it's just the thing to do -- as if I don't actually want it, but I'll do it anyway. If that makes sense.
I mean, one of the only reasons I want to join the Air Force is because it'll bide my time. And then who knows, when I leave I'll get into politics. But I just can't see myself truly enjoying any of it, really.
I have goals -- I want a family, wife, a well paying job, and so on. But I just feel no contentment in any of it -- I'm just doing it because that's what everyone is suppose to do.
I mean, sure it comes down to what am I going to do now, but then when I actually do said goal, I don't feel a whole lot of anything -- nothing really changes my feelings about life.
I don't know if this makes sense, I'm trying to explain this feeling I have, but it's hard
>>17928610
Create short-term goals. Determine to lose weight or learn Italian or paint your room or something within the next X months. Do it, and then set another short-term goal.
You can easily come up with an endless string of these, and meanwhile the longer-term goals will come to you.