How do I deal with the realization that I've wasted my life?

How old are you? 18? 19? You've barely begun to live.

>>17925167
Almost 28.

I wasted 10 years trying to be an artist, and now I want to kill myself for throwing away my youth.

Why is it a waste? No money? NO friends? No GF?

>>17925164
steve jobs will not be remembered in any meaningful way 100 years from now

by that logic we are all wasting our lives

working 60 hours a week for $120k a year in a job you hate is wasting your life

>>17925184
Exactly the same here, wasted the last 10 years struggeling with depression and insomnia, trying to get into artist school without degree but no chance

The thoughts of everything being "too late" is driving me into wishing for suicide on a daily base

>>17925215
I got a degree in design.

It's the biggest regret of my life.

>>17925215
Really. You dodged a bullet.

>>17925164

go volunteer somewhere

homeless shelter animal shelter youth center tutoring kids whatever

>>17925164

No, it is normal. Many people realize it at around 30. Try something else.

Just don't waste the rest of it. Don't die with the regret you feel now. There is still time.

>>17925164

figure out what NOT wasting it would mean for you

then start to NOT waste your life.

>>17925184
Many realize it much later after they noticed that they gave up on their dream and basically existed for decades. At least you still have like 50 years to make something out of it.

Analyze why you think you wasted the time, start doing things differently from now on, etc.

>>17925209
>steve jobs will not be remembered in any meaningful way 100 years from now
Just like Ford or Edison?

>>17925184
>>17925215

Go get a trade job and do art in your free time. If you're even halfway smart you can go into any trade and make good money. It's extremely difficult to work as a full time artist, and if you really are a great artist, it shouldn't matter in the quality of your work.

>>17925164
>How do I deal with the realization that I've wasted my life?
Stop crying over spilled milk and focus on making the best of what you have left

>>17926071
This. Forget money or education, those are good to have but your worth and self esteem come from what you do for others.

Success is empty and mostly a racket for people to pat themselves on the back. "Look how great we are."

Focus on enjoying whatever you have at the moment and work at a comfortable place towards your next goal.

The world is so abundant, that opportunity can come from almost anywhere. It isn't over. Apply for work, do your job, earn your money, everything else comes naturally.

grass is always greener at the other side

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>22
>got a bachelor of arts
>work in a call centre making decent enough money
>don't really want to work in a call centre for more than a few years
>don't really have an interest in anything that wouldn't require a masters and multiple internships
>don't want to go back to education now I'm earning decent money

What do to not regret my youth?

>>17925184
An artist, eh? Do you do furry porn commissions?

>>17926787
Because you know, they use bullshit as fertilizer.

>>17925164
Let go of your ego, man.

What is it that you wasted?

Listen to DVDASA.. david choe is an artist who came up in his late 20s.

What are you so hung up on?

>>17925164
I've wasted my life also, not intentionally though, every time an opportunity came up I went for it and it turned out to be a dud, now I constantly think about how I should end it, but then I wouldn't think that I would be accepted into Valhalla. So long way of saying travel to the Middle East and fight Isis, you'll either die a hero and be accepted into Valhalla or return a hero who helped purge the world of a scourge

>>17927328
I wish I'd never gotten a degree in design. I'm too fucking stupid to make a career of it.

>>17926460
easier said than done my friend

>>17925164
embrace apathy, anon

Haven't read the responses yet,

But I like to read biographies of girls or boys who have been abducted as kids and live in basements and shit, then end up escaping after 20 years. OR watch documentaries or movies of the same nature.

Kinda makes you feel better about your choices, or even having a choice.

>>17926506
ok senpai

>>17928683
Ironically Im pretty sure they value their lives more than we do after what theyve gone through

>>17925164

Just do something worthwhile and productive now. It's never really too late to improve, but if you give up and just whine about it, you'll just regret it all the same later on.

>>17928896
Or I'll be happy that I gave up on such a stupid dream.

Honestly, I probably should have done it sooner.

>>17925164
Even if nothing else has changed, there is always one thing you have more of today than you did yesterday. Experience.

The only way your life until now has been wasted, is if you refuse to use that experience.

>>17925184
That's not a waste. I wasted my 20s drinking and not doing anything. You spent your 20s chasing something you loved, and even though it didn't work out, now you know.

It doesn't matter OP.

Because there is no afterlife this whole life will be like a dream you'll never remember having.
Meditate on that and you will find the courage to do anything.

In the end you forget everything you ever did. In the end you cease to exist and lose consciousness forever.

Because of this live as dangerously and as risky as you want. Throw all your moral standards keeping you in the way of pleasure and full satisfaction out the window. Hurt whoever you want. They won't remember what pain is when they cease to exist. Do whatever it takes to get what you want. To get whatever sick satisfaction you can out of life to make up for the fact that you were born in a reality that makes you eventually cease to exist and forget you ever existed or did anything at all.

Here is my goal for you. By the end of this year I want you to have sex with 200 people. I want you to start finding as many underhanded ways you can find to make money that doesn't get you caught by police. And I want you to burn all that money on living the most rewarding kick ass lifestyle you could ever imagine.

Don't build personal relationships with anyone. It doesn't matter because you'll forget you ever existed and forget any time you spent together with them. Do what you want. Do what you want until you die and fuck everybody else. Nobody else matters unless they help you get what you want. Unless they are there to live with you exactly how you are living or to make your satisfaction in what you are doing even better than it was by doing it alone.

Treat life like a dream because it's close enough to the same. There are no consequences that matter in the end. Any pain you cause will be forgotten forever when they cease to exist. Do whatever it takes.

>all this vague, childish advice
>dude don't worry about it brah, the sheeple in their suits are wasting their life too!!

>>17926477
this

>>17930286
That's how you're supposed to spend your 20's.

I was cooped up inside, wasting my youth. Now it's gone.

>>17930310

I remember what being 12 felt like.

>>17925164

Youth is a social construct. What is it that you can't do now that you could do 5 or ten years ago?

Nothing. There is no such thing as "age" beyond how many times you've gone around the sun. Nothing exists in a vacuum. All 28 year olds are not the same. All 18 year olds are not the same. People exist more-so on a bell curve. You can still do anything you want. The only thing stopping you is your own belief system.

Plus, you're only wasting more time by dwelling on your imaginary problems.

>>17931615
>What is it that you can't do now that you could do 5 or ten years ago?
Say "I'm doing okay for my age."

>>17930188
That's a stupid thought to be honest.

>>17930310
Pretty much this

But I don't advocate using or hurting people, I'd be a lot more positive about life


Honestly think of the billions of people on earth, who isn't wasting their life? Just work on whatever makes you happy

>>17931664
Not wanting to waste my life failing is stupid?

>>17925184

>Almost 28

In what universe is being 27 being past your youth? Even then, if you were 50, I wouldn't say the same thing, especially if you're a man. Get it together dude.

>>17930310

This is the most fedora tipping edgelord pseudo-intellectual post I've ever read on 4chan and I've been here a long time

>>17931814
Whose life ever got better after 30?

I feel like I'm about to. I'm 18 and want to go to this college however there are some toxic people from high school going there and I don't know if it's worth it anymore.

>>17931814
Yeah, it's totally fine when everyone is like "man, when I was in my teens and twenties I did all these things" and you have nothing other than being a failure at life.

And nobody wants to see a middle aged person pretending and doing stuff like they're 20. It's a fucking cringefest.

>>17932005
>booo hoo I don't have funneh stories to shit around with at the bar

So make some, faggot. Go to public areas and interact with people. That's how you make life events.

>b-b-but muh social anxiety

Don't bitch about never having life stories if you want to act out Chicken Little all day.

>nobody wants to see a middle aged person pretending and doing stuff like they're 20

"boo hoo i'm 30 I can't do life anymore but I'm too much of a fucking pussy to kill myself so I'm just going to whine for the next forty years as I slowly rot"

Is this who you want to be?

>>17931891
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Late_bloomer#Adults

You can't really throw your life away or waste it. You can only spend it doing what you want to do. Everything else is pretty much rationalisation after the event itself. You spent your time jerking off and playing video games? Guess you really wanted to do that instead of something else then dude. Deal with it.

You can throw it away or waste it as seen through the eyes of another, but as you cannot control or dictate or truly know the thoughts and opinions of others and you should be aware of the difficulty in authentically making choices by trying to assume what will make you look good in the eyes of others. It is basically a game where the only way to win, is to not play it in the first place.

On a lighter note, I felt similar after working the same fucking job for 8 years and being denied several internal promotions and thinking this is it, my potential ends here, I'm done or something. You end up institutionalised by the relative comforts of your current situation and the fear of the unknown and I was lucky enough to have a supportive partner who was like this year you want to go into education, retrain, take some time off, change careers, give up work and start a family, start a business, whatever, this year we make a change.

So I got another job in a completely unrelated field and it turns out I'm actually fucking awesome and everything is awesome and I'm earning more and actually progressing and feel like I'm contributing to things as time passes instead of simply stagnating.

testing

>>17932139
testing

>>17932095

Ok if you say so Shia LeBeouf.

>>17932095
Life is like a movie. If you sat through more than half of it and it sucked every minute chances are it isn't going to get great right at the last minute.

And basing your hope on a group of people that are more or less a statistical anomaly is just stupid. Majority of people grow old, their bodies and brains go to shit, possibly in a colostomy bag.

>>17925164
the answer to that depends on what stuff did you waste your life to. Share your shit op

>>17930310
the edge is so sharp it almost scratched my screen

>>17931615
>What is it that you can't do now that you could do 5 or ten years ago?

Skate.

>What is it that you can't do now that you could do 5 or ten years ago?

Be happy.

>>17932385
What if Ellen Fanning approached you tomorrow and said "you are the love of my life, please let me be yours"

>>17932401
I would be creeped out because that name rings zero bells.

>>17932401
>Ellen Fanning
She's out of my league, i will be scared as fuck.

>>17925164
I came here to make a thread about this like this. I hate what I've done with my life's what I'm doing now is slowing wasting away my passion which used to be my life. I just hate everything I used to love, and I can't find any direction. I hate my love life with my girlfriend, I hate myself. I don't know how to fix this.

>>17925297
I got a design degree because I didn't think I'd make it as an artist.

I was fucked either way.

I wish I had gotten rid of a toxic friend earlier in my life.

Could be worse dog, I just find out I have AIDS.

>>17934820
Full blown?

>>17925297
Industrial Design?

>>17935002
Graphic design.

>>17935072
What do you think about an Industrial Design degree? Im thinking about getting one.

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>>17931564

Nah nigga.

You can spend many days of your youth creating memories by fucking bitches and getting plastered, but what you did was spend a long time trying to tap into the truth that lies inside of you. Albeit unsuccessfully through fine art, you've learned some hard truths about who you are and where you're going. Although you may feel like you wasted all those years, you have much better insight into who YOU are and what YOU need moving forward. It may not feel like a lot, but you're farther along than some of your peers your age who are kind of just "Huck Finning" through life right without any sense of self.

Believe me, you WANT to experience this pain right now than 20 years later when you're constantly hitting the bottom of a bottle to blur your pains of a wasted life. Keep pushing, keep chipping away at the surface.

>>17935085
I wouldn't know, dog. Sorry.