I'm eighteen, and over the past few years I've been

It sounds like dysthymia, which is not to imply you have an "illness" in the usual sense of the word. Something is giving you a shit mood and possibly loneliness.

>>17883659
u depressed son

>>17883659
>>17883696
Oh, and
>I'm not depressed.
Depression comes in different levels. Some people were a little bit unhappy about candidates chosen for the recent presidential election. Someone out there probably attempted suicide due to the anguish. They both fall under the umbrella of depression.

>>17883696
I've heard of this. I dismissed it before, but it looks pretty close to what I have now that I think about it. My only problem is from this quote:

>Early onset (diagnosis before age 21) is associated with more frequent relapses, psychiatric hospitalizations, and more co-occurring conditions

Does this mean that to be diagnosed, I have to have some major crisis moment, like a hospitalization?

>>17883698
>>17883704
I guess so. I remember my mother having issues with Depression in the past, but it would be awkward to confront her about it.

>>17883659
"When I was a child I thought and spoke like a child. But now I am a man I put aside childish things."

You're just growing up and outgrowing your child's tastes. Find what you like now and search out toys that will meet your new tastes.

>>17883968
The tricky thing though is I've tried a lot of adult things too, and they don't appeal to me either. Academic literature, philosophy, STEM fields - nothing stuck. I'm disaffected in a similar way. My taste in music hasn't changed drastically since I was a child, and I still enjoy it a lot.