I'm losing it completely and I know it. This is the second

I spend so much time alone guys. I spent the last two days basically talking to no one but two of my friends, and it wasn't even pleasant. I'm dying here. I really am.

At work for example, I used to always be the happy guy. Making everyone laugh and bring up the mood; people loved me. Now I can't hardly even keep it together. I give away half my shifts. I go to the back and litterally punch and kick and break things regularly because I am just that much of a mess.

as someone who smokes a ton of weed and occasionally dabbles in LSD, take a break my dude

you need to be sober and actually think about what it is that is bothering you

being fucked up is just a waste of your time

if you wanna do that go for it nobody's stopping you, but if you're young you might as well get it figured out and ironed out now, then go back to the weed and LSD.

>>17854753
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Get off the drugs. I've been through the same shit. Problem is the drugs will still fuck with your thinking for months after you have been off them. You have other emotional problems that you need to get a grip on and doing drugs is not going to help your thinking. You probably don't have the option to go to a cozy rehab and kick your feet up for a couple months. I didn't. I had to do it all on my own. I'm not saying drugs are bad or your problem. When you have other problems they don't help that problem. You have to clear your mind before you have a solution. Note: with total withdraw it gets worse before it all gets better. Good luck Anon. If I believed in god i'd pray for you.

>>17854753
>>17854753

I know exactly what's bothering me. It's the quality of my life. It's the fact I feel alienated by my friends. It's the fact I feel so fucking alone and without a true intimate relationship. It has been eating away at my life since I was a kid. I knew deep in my heart that if I hit 25 without getting an intimate relationship (more than sex, a real connection that was mutual), I'd be fucked. I'm fucked now. I know it. I've went from eager and full of hope to hopeless. It was gradual over this year, the change, but it has finally come. I'm at the breaking point. It's do or die now, and I know it.

This drug stuff all started happening this month. But it was 2 months ago I lost 10% of my wieght in 1 month. It was last month, before the drugs, that I started becoming unstable.

>>17854734
I did the same thing desu.
First semester of college was one of the worst experiences of my life. I pretty much just did shrooms and LSD with the occasional weed and alcohol as well. Ended up failing 2 of my 4 classes and basically becoming even more depressed. I had nobody at this time, and honestly felt like complete shit. What I did was go to the gym and push out my frustration in exercise. I then made a deal.
I said that if I still feel like this when pushing myself and my body to the limit, I'll join the navy and do something where I can accomplish something whilst not being a depressive fuck. Maybe something a bit exciting. Still on the workout process to get me to SEAL material. (It's a stretch but I"m actually really improving).
I highly, highly recommend setting a goal like this. It's helped tremendously.