So it's 6:32 in the morning, I haven't slept, and I'm

Why are you on here?

>>17852072
Because I'm drunk and not sure where else or who else to go to.

>>17852076
Oh, and because shit's bad right now. Plus my last reply. Yeah. Did I mention I'm wasted?

>>17852077
No one cares

I also suck cocks

>>17852083
I realize.
>>17852084
Sweet, man.

Thought this was the place for this type of shit. MY BAD LOL

>>17852105
It is kinda, but you shoulda just dumped all your problems In the OP. Otherwise it just looks like your doing it for attention. So yeah either fuss up or fuck off. Up to you.

>>17852111
Right. And I do know that, I'm sorry. Way too drunk. First piece of advice I suppose I'd seek, then: Where do I start right now?

>>17852123
It seems obvious, pour out your drink, get a glass of water and start brewing a cup of coffee.

Can't do shit if you aren't sober first.

>>17852123
Shit. Sorry. Wasted and being avoidant.

I may have lost my job quite recently. It's kind of up in the air at the moment, but with what occurred just before I'm not sure if going back is an option. I just turned 25, and these are the facts of my life:

Shit happened to me way back when that I realized, over time of course, has affected me more than I realized possible. My job may be a lost cause, and I might be in debt to social security at this point because of my own poor decisions/lack of self control. I've been put in what most would call the 'friend-zone', after feeling like I'd been on the way to recovery and thus feeling that sort of relationship worth pursuing, only to realize someone with my issues isn;t worth or capable of that sort of deeper connection with another person. Socially, I'm a fucking mess. The same person I mentioned with the 'friendzone' (Something I still consider a bullshit term, but whatever) pointed out some things about myself that I feared, but I suppose wanted to think just COULDNT be me. I've never done a damn thing I wanted to, always let life pass me by, and as these issues grow stronger and worsen my convistion to change and try to live better weakens, and I just don't know what to do or where to turn now.

I am sorry if any of that is confusing. I may have pointed out before, but I've spent the night drinking myself deep into a bottle of whiskey and I may not be as articulatee as I normally try to be.

To answer the question posed to be earlier, 'why am I here'? Because I literally do not know what to do now, where to go, why I have to be this way, or how to move forward. Sorry if it looked like I just wanted attention. I assure you that is not the case I'm just Incredibly fucked at this point in my life, and ending shit looks to be the only sane or possbile option for someone like me. Not trying to sound like some cringey fucking teenager either, it just is what is is

>>17852173
I'm allergic to caffiene, actually, but I apprecitare the legitmate reply. Sadly... I already drank that last drink. Last sip in a 20 dollar bottle of whiskey, I may be in it for the long haul for now

>>17852173
>>17852174
>>17852178
After you start to sober up, make a list of 10 realistic jobs you wouldn't mind doing, then start outlining the necessary steps to get qualified for them.

>>17852181
question: How long on average does it take to 'sober up'? I've got some calls to make to day I;ve avoided for over a month now that I know I can;t wait on any longer, so sleep is sadly not on schedule. As for jobs... Even wasted as I am I can't think of a thing I would like to do AND be capable of. Im a total fuckkup in every way see

>>17852194
Idk, how much have you had to drink? How heavy are you?

Drink lots of water and walk around. You should be at least functional in an hour or two.

>>17852200
okay, I;ve had all but a couple sips of a... 750ml bottle of 70 proof whiskey, plus a couple shots? And I suppose I might wiegh around 200 pounds? How much water are we talking? Luckily I've got plenty of bottles hanging around due to poor money and belonging management

>>17852194
Also, what would you like to do?

You don't necessarily have to be capable of it right away, that's why I said to outline the steps to get qualified for them.

>>17852216
Just keep drinking as much as you can. Keep a bottle or a glass with you at all times and keep reminding yourself to take sips.

Maybe eat something greasy and fattening to soak up the alcohol too.

>>17852224
All righty. Being unable to cook for myself in this fucking place doesnt help the search for greasy fattening foods, though. I'll find something

>>17852216
Honestly, lately I've been thinking about going into psychology. Maybe trying to become a counsoler/psycologist or specialising in developmental psychiology, realising that if people like me recieve the help they need when young enough to matter then they won't turn out well, like me. I also always fancied the ideaa of being a writer/author, but I'm just not capable and a lot of that I realize stemss from my mother telling me all about how that's what she wanted to do with her life, until she became pregnant with me and gave it all up

But either way, let's be honest on two fronts: I'm not capable of either; nothing but dead-end jobs for this sadsack. And most people who claim these things are what they want for life merely say that what they want. They love the IDEA of it, but the work eludes them. It's a way for most to try to seem superior or more than they are day-to-day, especially the young.
But hey, maybe I'm wrong, maybe it's the drink speaking