>*first word problem trigger warning* >be a late bloomer

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>*first word problem trigger warning*
>be a late bloomer
>dated a girl for 3 years in college. She was the only attractive girl that showed interest in me so I was like lol ok
>have nothing in common besides wanting to bang each other
>break up after 3 years
>devastated
>discover tinder
>go on a banging spree of multiple other girls
>catch feels for one quirky girl from my hometown harder than my ex
>drive her away
>double devastated
>go on another banging spree
>don't like a single person
>attractive girl wants to date me now
>can't connect to her at all because of double devastation
>leading her on while banging 4 other girls because I'm lonely and my friends and family live on the other side of the country


I feel unfulfilled in my emotional life and I the only thing keeping me going is my desire to have my parents see me become successful. I don't know what I actually want for myself in life, if anything at all. And having friends and women just come and go by in my life is emotionally exhausting. I'm not in control of my life anymore, I'm a slave to my dick, and not a day goes by where I don't wish I was a 12 year old playing final fantasy and living a life surrounded by friends and family

How do I do life right at this point? I'm 24.

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