I can't get out of depression. I am in therapy for years

Go get a job on a small local organic farm. Look on craigslist for an opening for part time. They always need another hand and are usually very open minded and will be supportive towards you as long as you give them a good hand.

I was depressed, and my doc is the one who informed me.

He put me on pills, and I took them. But, I realized it wasn't really me that was depressed, just the situations I'd gotten myself into.

Engaged to a cheating whore, trying to make it work.
Working a dead end job, barely making it by.
Not having any freedom because cheating whore is absolutely draining my entire life.
Work sucked, I had no friends, my life was over and I didn't think I'd ever recover.

After being on the prescribed pills for a couple of months, I decided it wasn't going to change the situation I am in, and I can't just sit there thinking these pills are going to work.

I have to do something, me. It's not going to happen for me.

I broke up with my girlfriend, and I took a big leap in my job, and I wasn't on medication.

Last night I watched the football game with my friends, had a few beers, have been working out, and make more money than ever and my life is happier than when I was around toxic people in a toxic relationship, letting my life rot away into nothing of worth.

I'm ready to have fun, enjoy my time, and spend it doing whatever the fuck I want to do, and it's that way because I was in a depressed suicidal rock bottom, and had the will power to climb out of it and understand I was the only one responsible for my own happiness.

>>17838694
>I have to do something, me. It's not going to happen for me.
I am aware of this but it isn't so simple.

I was born into a wealthy family and study in a world class university. Everything got thrown at me and my future is supposed to look very bright. I should be happy but I am not.

I am not stupid and if it was easy I would have broken out of this a long time ago.

>>17838704
Are you free? Do you have the basic freedoms a man should have?

I.E. a private place to call your own, ideal transportation, and money of your own to spend without question?

>>17838708
No I am not. I don't have an own home, I don't have a car, just some saved up money.

Some time ago I got into a confrontation with my parents and threatened to just leave. Sometimes I regret not doing it. I think I am spoiled and have become too comfortable and that a fresh start from zero would revitalize me. The problem is my current suffering is very real and very strong but it is not tangible and the only solution is to take a dive into even greater suffering and I lack the energy to take the leap.

>>17838731
I can't relate with the wealth issues, I grew up with two divorced poor parents. But, I can say that I had to let myself slip pretty far down before I had the true motivation to build myself up again.

anon a depression offers advantages, i.e. subconsciously you realized that the suffering you get from this condition is still better than the suffering you imagine you would suffer having to live a normal life

of course the pills can be helpful but you need to actively want to get out of it instead of being sheltered by this illness

>>17838731
I'm being serious - it just sounds a bit strange.

Do something unusual. Do you have any particular issues that get you riled up? For example, there was a book on the Drug war about how heroin, meth, etc is used as an escapist device by broken people to avoid hurting others. It was written by a guy who struggled with depression and drugs. He went slightly Mongolian nomad and went to speak with druggies in parks, with cartel members, with prison officers.

Maybe you need a weird adventure. If you're rich, demand to either take a course in an unusual country or take a leap year in exchange for good grades. Demand it - doing something physical and tangible (go tear up a building with Greenpeace if that's your shtick) or else you might just be killed by your comfortable position in life.

OP check this out. So exercise is actually so good for improving your mood that doctors say exercise is just as if not more powerful than anti depressant medication. If you exercise on top of the medication you are already taking you will feel LEAGUES better.

Now here's the problem. You don't want to exercise incorrectly. Like too much too often. Because then you'll over train and feel sore and feel worse than usual. Or you won't exercise enough and then you won't feel as good as you would feel. Or if you don't eat enough food to recover appropriately inbetween workouts you won't come back strong enough to do the exercise better next time and keep increasing your energy over time by making the exercise harder and harder. Check out the /fit/ sticky. Though if you're not in a financial position to be able to afford enough food to recover right don't get into weight lifting just yet.

Focus on running for now if you can't focus on lifting. And here's something else my doctor also told me. There are studies done that just by WALKING for 30 minutes a day the people all started feeling much better. So if you have the energy to just slowly walk around outside for 30 minutes you will feel much better afterwards.

The reason your therapy is sucking is because you only probably see them like 4 times a month. You see them so infrequently that you might be stuck in this nasty cycle where you barely cover anything productive in your visits and don't really apply what little you talked about since you last saw them. So you go nowhere fast. You're better off looking up top tier therapy methods for depression from reputable psychology websites that show you how to use the therapy on yourself that is probably much better than what your therapist would be using on you.

Look up psychotherapy and cognitive behavioral therapy. They are known as top tier ways to deal with depression.

>>17838995
Thank you. Been hitting the gym for almost 8 years now though. It cured my depression 8 years ago but not this time unfortunately.

But what I have been thinking about is if I don't feel well just go outside for a walk, no matter what time of the day it is.

>You see them so infrequently that you might be stuck in this nasty cycle where you barely cover anything productive in your visits and don't really apply what little you talked about since you last saw them
I see them less frequent than that even in part because I don't feel like those visits help me. I don't feel understood or helped. It is also uncomfortable for me to open up. I don't want to sound or act like a crybaby.

>You're better off looking up top tier therapy methods for depression from reputable psychology websites that show you how to use the therapy on yourself that is probably much better than what your therapist would be using on you.
Thank you for the suggestion. I will try that.

>>17838679
Been on therapy for years. I'm still not out of it but in august I did the following things:

- Got rid of all depressing albums in my smartphone.
- 30 day nofap and no orgasm
- Stopped watching porn altogether
- Improved my posture

This helped me a lot. I'm more talkative now and I even tried asking a girl out (last time i did it was 9 years ago) but fucked up due to lack of skill.

>>17839072
I'm glad to hear you are improving. Good luck, keep it up.