How to get out of an absolute rut?
I'm in one of those phases where I'm keeping myself depressed even though I know deep down that I am not and could snap out of it with effort. I don't understand the psychological reasons behind this but I do it often.
My life is genuinely shit and I have a host of issues going right back to childhood. There is nothing stopping me from going to the gym, meeting some friends or even applying for jobs or volunteering somewhere. But I am spending my days in a fog of unhappiness and I just can't tell if its real depression or not? Its like I have a split mind where part of me wants to improve but there is a stronger part which wants to keep me on a destructive path.
I need to totally turn my life around but its always been a mess so I don't know where to start. I know I can't make changes overnight, I have to build momentum. But right now, I just want to be totally alone and I hate the idea of being around others or making an effort. I have barely eaten this past week.
What can I do??
What do you do during the day
When was the last time you were in school or work
>>17838531
I sit at home and go out of my mind with regret and boredom. I sit on my computer and occasionally jerk off
I went self-employed 4 years ago which failed miserably. I am now essentially a 30+ NEET. My last official job was a temporary role 9 years ago. My CV is pitiful
you need an obligation
School, work
Something you can't get out of and gives you a routine
>>17838514
look at motivation quotes on the gram. for ex u could be doing a million things rn but instead ur doing x.
>>17838514
OP, eventually this feeling will go away on it's own. However, if you have money/time there is one short cut to getting you out of this zone:
Travel.
Yep. For at least a weeks, preferably somewhere you have never been, though it doesn't necessarily have to be far away. Unfortunatelly, this is probably the thing you feel least like doing, but I pomise you it will work.
Use AirB&B. They should have wayy better deals than motels right now. Bring a book and/or journal. Just go though.