I'm more attracted to CGI women than real ones. This is

Masturbate to regular porn for awhile.

You're not attracted to cg women you're attracted to having a guarantee that you won't be rejected a cg doesn't exist so she can't reject you or reveal a flaw or anything like that. That why you obsess with escapist fantasies. If you want to get over this stop trying to escape and live life no more roleplay in no more childish games just go out have your own real life adventures

>>17817458
What if my dreams and adventures involve making vidya?

>>17817659
You're idea of a fulfilling life is sitting in a room alone writing codes for video games?

>>17817665
My idea of a fulfilling life is telling stories and breaking new grounds in methods of story telling.

Books, films, TV shows. They don't evoke the same fascination and joy within me that a good game does. Sure I can appreciate a shot for a shot's sake but that's only because of my minor education in it.

If you asked a film buff, or more than that a great director/cinematographer, if their idea of a fulfilling life is sitting in a room and arranging objects and people around a few high powered lightbulbs I guarantee they'd say yes. If you asked a novelist, a respectable one at that, if their idea of a fulfilling life is sitting in a room alone and churning out 1000 words of prose every morning, they'd say yes.

So yes, writing code for video games, writing stories for video games, writing plans for video games is a fulfilling life for me. Or, at least, it feels far -far- more fulfilling than the other two aforementioned modes of story telling I've already described.

tl;dr Yes.