I have most of my shit together but I keep feeling like I'm

you sound like a child
do you play with toys and vidya?

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>>17815440
No. I usually read, write and make attempts to do art on my free time.

>>17815473
Stick to what you know? Read everyday about your job and how to do it better? Develop a hobby and work hard at it to achieve something?

I don't know OP. Your question seems too vague. IMO, having a general sense of "non-deserving" might be you subconsciously thinking your life is too easy, but it also might be that you have confidence issues.

If I were you, I'd find something difficult for you and try to master it. It could be anything: a hobby, a sport, another job; anything.

I would also read about your job to become an expert in it: start looking for projects to take on to further challenge you.

The best way of combating a lack of "deserve" is to do something that makes you feel deserving of your surroundings.

>>17815333
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impostor_syndrome

>>17815567
My job is the easiest thing in the world, an illiterate child could do it if it weren't for legal reasons and the need for physical strength.

The last time I tried to learn something that was hard for me I gave up after a month, when I had a breakdown at work and spent a week at a mental ward because of the stress.

>>17815591
How do I get rid of that?